This whole Spiritual Journey has left me wondering if everything I am learning, seeing and witnessing is nothing but an illusion/lie created by False Light Beings?

It seems like no-one seems to support what I have been shown and taught by my Spiritual Guides and that I may be doing more harm to this World than good.

Even when I astral travel beyond the astral plain and venture beyond its boundaries I am no longer able to trust even higher dimensional beings of Light because so many of them have deceived me, including the Archangels, Ascended Beings, White Light Beings and so on.

Ever since I began helping our Planet by bringing on Divine Light to this World things just got worse onto our Planet instead of better and I am witnessing the Descension of Mankind on a very large scale.

I even saw Jeshua/Jesus handcuffed me with these esoteric cuffs to both of my wrist with chains grounded to Earth and witnessed my spiritual powers diminish dramatically. I can't seem to heal anyone anymore, dark energies are penetrating my shield of protection with ease now and I once again am losing faith in the whole spiritual Journey as I do not know who to trust anymore.

Even my visions are getting dimmed out as I am only seeing partial images anymore and losing the ability to see as clearly as I once did.

I am starting to think that the False Light Beings from the Higher Realms are getting the best of me, using my gifts for their own advantage as this World plunges deeper into darkness.

When people ask me for guidance, blessings and healings I am only met with criticism and laughter and I am starting to feel like my healings are making people worse off and I am beginning to really feel alineated from this World.

I am starting to believe that I may have been deceived right from the beginning and they the dark energies have been playing me like a yo-yo and I am once again questioning everything that has been shown to me in both the physical n spiritual realms.

I can't seem to trust any God like being nor can I trust any archangel because to me they are the deceivers the fallen angels of the real light of Truth. I am even starting to question my relationship with my own Spiritual Guides. It seems like I may be losing the battle between darkness and light as I thought I was getting stronger as I awaken to my True Soul Essence in 9D. Religion to me is so dark and corrupted and yet the World see's light from within this corrupted institution and false teachings.

I honestly do not know what to do anymore and it seems like reality and truth have abandonned me in my time of need, in Humanity's time of need.

What have I done wrong? Ever since my identity has been revealed all I now see is darkness penetrating everywhere I go and when I use my spiritual gifts to cleanse the path in front of me darkness follows undoing everything I have done. These malevolent beings are popping out of darkness everywhere and I can see them manipulating everyone all around me even in the media I see these dark spirits manipulating events and people lives and I feel so helpless to help anyone being harassed by these dark energies unknowingly.

I am either on a very special Spiritual assignment from possibly a higher realm than 5D which is why I see what I see or maybe the dark energies are using me to gain strength to overtake this World and bring the people to their knees as they have done for thousands of years. After all they have been playing this game of darkness against light for so long on 3D Earth and I am merely a newbie in this battle of Light vs Darkness on Earth.

I tried everything to create balance onto this Planet and I have tried to help even those Souls who are trapped in the 4th realm but yet here I am questioning even myself, my faith, my visions, my abilities and I am starting to really feel like all is lost for Humanity of 3D Earth no matter how hard I try to help our World.

Maybe somebody could shed some Light, offer some advice or explanation why do I see a different spiritual truth than everyone else on this Planet.

I can't deny what I have seen and learnt throughout my spiritual awakening but it all seems so meaningless now as the darkness of the 3D realm envelops the World in a final battle between light and darkness. I feel like I am losing the battle fighting them every single day in every single moment and I feel so alone and exhausted as I witness my spiritual energies being drained from me daily and their darkness getting stronger day by day.

I do get spurts of powerful energy every now and then and I watch the news to see if it had any positive effects onto Humanity but then a day later darkness attacks even harder and all seems to be lost in this battle betweeen darkness and My Divine Light.

I have also seen how Humanity can finally Ascend with Earth's Ascension but the end game to get to that point in heartwrenching to say the least as many dark souls will either have to transform their darkness into the Light or be forced off of this Planet but at what cost and how many lives will be sacrificed for Earth's Ascension to actually and realistically happen.

In my Heart I believe that every soul should be forgiven for their darkness within because they are merely victims of their own upbringing, their environment, their culture who deceives them, the news outlets, man made religions who judge everyone so harshly for their differences instead of showing equal love to everyone, but it seems like the Spiritual Realm has other plans and its terrifying to know their agenda for Humanity.

I weap here for Humanity's future and I feel helpless to stop this madness from happening on Earth in our Present Times. I don't know maybe I should just focus on my own ascension and forget about everyone else on this dark planet in 3D.

I was shown 2 outcomes for Earths possible future one from the Light realm and the other from the Dark realm and I don't agree with either of them. Many lives are at stake one way or another and I was trying to help eveyone no matter who they were or how much suffering they have caused others.

The Light Realm believes that there are souls on this planet created from Dark Sources who no matter what they will never ever ascend and see the Light Within them because these soul energies were created by the Dark Realms with the intention of bringing on darkness and darkness only onto our World. So the Light Realm has warned me that close to 4 Billion Souls physical bodies will perish into ashes and their Soul Energies will be captured by thousands of Alien starships awaiting to collect them en masse to relocate them on another Planet. Once these malevolent souls are eliminated from our World only then can the 3D Earth can prepare for Her Ascension into 5D.

The Dark Realm doesn't want to relinquish 3D Earth as they have plans to control this World through fascism and control the citizens as World Slaves to do their bidding and divide the World between the poor and the rich eliminating the middle class so they can control everything on Earth like they are presently trying to accomplish. Democracy will finally end and Fascism will rule 3D Earth.

I think both of their plans are ridiculous and heartwrenching to say the least and I feel myself questioning both of their Agenda's.

Please let me know what you think because I am starting to feel like one way or another I may be a threat to both the Light and the Darkness here on 3D Earth because I do not support either of their Agenda's for Earth's future. I believe all Soul Energies can be saved no matter what Source created them because I have witnessed goodness in all souls no matter how corrupted they are. It sure seems like both sides have no remorse for the lives they will be taking in Earth's near future whatsoever and that doesn't sit well with me at all and now I find myself once again the outsider looking in while both sides battles for the sovereignty of their own selfish and cruel agenda's.

P.S. I sometimes wonder if the Ones's who are in charge of the Divine Light energies in these lower realms, lower dimensions and lower densities have somehow lost their righteous,
spiritual and Divine ways somewhere along the way throughout their long History of continuously fighting against these dark light energies.

 Sometimes we become what we despise the most no matter how Spiritual one may believe 
 themselves to be, and that rule applies to all Light Beings and Citizens of all Worlds 
 in these lower dimensions, realms and densities within this vast Universe.