I truly understand your situation, for I am in the same boat. My money ran out last month and I havent worked in 4,5 years time. Prior to that I had my own massage practice for 4 years which gave me the freedom I so much sought. With the law of attraction I managed to win the lottery that made it possible to enjoy a mini pension of 4,5 years. Now the money has ran out and debt collectors are ringing me up. Despite my "dire" situation I feel pretty unbothered by it. What's crazy is that I keep seeing articles and Youtube video suggestions on homelessness. Is this a sign of the universe of event to come? Should I get up and find a job? That is something I swore never to do again just like yourself. I'm an introvert and don't get along with people. Again, I'm very chill about my current situation and despite the real threat of being homeless I remain steadfast on my journey to total financial freedom / of escaping the rat race.

My past experiences have thought me that everything always works out for the better. Every so called 'crisis' was a blessing in disguise elevating me to better and greater things. Today I still belief this to be the case. I've been playing the lottery, expecting a pleasant windfall once again. I've been getting inspiration to garden and to transform my neighborhood into a somewhat self-sufficient food producing community. Farming might be my calling. For it is the only thing in a long time Im truly passionate about. See, if there was no crisis I wouldnt have made the pivot to learning to become more self-sufficient and conscious of the quality of food we consume. So, it is a blessing!

I cant tell you what to do other than to follow your bliss. I KNOW things will get better. There is no doubt about that!!! REALITY IS BUT A REFLECTION OF YOUR INNER WORLD. If you dont like what you see, start looking inwards and change your negative self talk. I expect and accept the presence of pain or loss during this transition. Working for another person is a BIG NO-NO. My intention is clear and set in stone, so now all is left for me to do is trust the universe to come to my aid.

This post might sound a bit WOO WOO. Be that as it may, remember this well: You are the author of your story. Keep positive, by reaffirming your desires. Your desires my take months to come to fruition in the physical realm ... that matters not, it will come to pass if you keep feeding that desire.

You are not lost... you are doubting yourself and fear the discomfort of losing your possessions. But think about it. If you loose all your posessions, you are now completely free! Homeless people are truly free in a bizar way. They have nothing to lose. And that is blissful in a sense.

Remember: change is good. Even so-called bad events can be catalyst for positive growth. I hope this helps.