My answer follows up Wade's answer...

You are an artist. You like to draw and doodle. You said that you do not have the patience for big or complex stuff...

I have a college minor in Art...which is a sort of joke, because I never took any art until college, and I "thought" I had no talent at it. My son, however, is one of those people who can draw portraits and has been drawing on everything, with anything, since he was one...no kidding...

He graduated from High School, and I was laid up in bed with a massive infection in my left leg. I was on IV therapy at home. One day, he came into my bedroom, and announced that he had registered for two classes at junior college, one of them being Drawing I...

I was so jealous, I pouted. I was drooling inside. It sounded so great! My goal in High School was towards Pre-Med studies, so I never had the time to take any Art. I worked my butt off in HS, and ended up being accepted to Northwestern University's Honors Med Program...a huge honor, as they only accepted 30 students to it from across the country. The goal was to graduate in six years; I would earn my MD and BS at the same time...

But I was only 17 and my Dad refused to sign my first semester loan papers for me as I was too young being 17. He destroyed my dreams...I tried The University of Illinois, Loyola, Harvard...they all wanted me, but the answer was the same...I needed those aid papers signed. My Dad said it would be a waste of money, because I would just get "knocked up", get married, and then he would have to pay back the loan. He repeated no deal...I am digressing...fast forward...

I did not know God had other plans for me.

So there I was, lying in bed, being jealous, and finally, I called my son, John, into my room and asked him if he would mind if I could somehow join him in his Drawing I class. I asked him if he would wheel me to class, and if it would bother him to take the class with his mom...

He said, "No." Bless his heart, thank God! So I became what we called , "The Art Cart". We had to have tool boxes for our art supplies and portfolios for our artwork...he would unload me and my wheelchair out of the van, and pile all the supplies on my lap, and off to class we went.

Mind you, it was really discouraging at first watching my son draw and sketch like he was Michelangelo...I had to struggle just to make something even resemble reality! But, boy, was I creative and clever! I found something inside myself that gave me pure joy...Art! This was news to me.

Our first assignment was to draw a picture that had the theme of an egg.

Hmmm....

What I finally did was to draw a bunch of birds around a center space the shape of an egg. Actually, it turned out rather nice. The birds looked pretty good, too. I did it with black Arches paper, drawing with a white colored pencil...

As time went on, and I kept getting "A's", I grew absolutely hooked. My teacher was fantastic and encouraging. She put up with my IV pole, my wheelchair, everything, and I barely could sit for the four hours of class; I was so weak- but I loved it, loved it, loved it.

To answer your question: I began to develop a unique style of drawing as I took more classes with Lynn. It was a type of doodling...I drew people like a child in ink, and then would color them. One semester, I made a eight-page, hardbound book that told the story of my abuse...It won several awards..In fact, every semester after the first, I won some scholarship or award for one project after another, which I turned around to pay for the next Art class.

So go ahead, follow your instincts, and doodle and doodle. It makes you happy...as Wade said, this may be what you are destined to do...you may be developing a unique style that is all your own...play, play play! Be sure to keep a sketchbook, and doodle away. Those doodles will turn into something really great if you are following your heart's desire!

In the meantime, go with the flow and do exactly what makes you happy. Read questions here on IQ about "flow". I know I posted one for sure. That is the state you want to get to- "flow". This allows for the LOA to work, and you will manifest all sorts of good things. God works with you on this. He guides us. He rewards us for hard work and Faith. Our reward is prosperity, also, but the J-O-Y is your clue as to your destiny.

As for me...God has set my feet on a path towards being a Chaplain in a Hospital. I will graduate November 11, 2012, with my BA...

What about my art, you ask...

Well, I will be using my art to help people in the hospital to express their anger and pain....God knew what He was doing all along...I was meant to heal, all right...just not bodies, though...but souls!

Hope this helps,

Peace,

Jai