My friend, I think its time for some tough love for you:)

Let me venture here to show you how you are making things convenient for you by playing a victim and why this will not solve anything for you...

Reading your question, I feel, you are venting out your frustration towards this particular dude. Be as it may, let me guide you on how you may be able to start fixing some things with a spiritual approach.

Count how many negative things you have written about yourself in this post: I gave up after 38

Count how many positive things you have written about yourself in this post: 5 and I counted all.

Think about it for a minute! Would YOU like to be with a person who has such opinion about themselves? Answer honestly!

Our relationships reflect on what we have received from others, what we have given, and what troubles we have caused. Genuine self-relfection affects so many aspects of our life-the presence of gratitude, our relationships with our loved ones, the degree of judgment we have about other’s faults, our mental health, lifestyle choices, investment decisions, even our faith in a supreme being or life force.

Keeping that in mind, Your question really tells you about yourself than about what is happening to you. Let me risk here by saying how you come across:

Here's the tough love part:)...

You like people 'who look good,have fair complexion,look awesome'

You would marry someone who is 'beautiful and fair skinned'

You could only spend the good money you make on yourself if you had fair complexion and you look good and was awesome.

Your thinking is that people who are good looking are luckier. They are the 'choosers'

Because of your looks, you think you are 'unlucky', a sort of a 'beggar' and hence cannot be a chooser.

So you don't feel worthy of spending money on yourself...

DO YOU SEE that in this whole thing, the guy'who-married-the-beautiful-fair-skinned-girl' has nothing to do with how you feel. You always felt this way about yourself, he just came into your life and reflected that.

Do you see that all you see of yourself is what you do not have - lack of complexion,good looks, being awesome- and what you focus on will expand.

Did you ever consider that maybe this 'beautiful, fair skinned girl' this guy married is really a great human being, that they are in love and that is why he married her?

OR ...Consider this: Suppose you were given fair skin, great complexion, good looks and all the awesomeness, do you REALLY think that every guy who passed you by would fall for you? Or all your problems related to relationships would be solved?

Do you know that on our planet - the planet Earth- there are more dusky/dark/wheatish complexion people than there are fair skinned ones? That also ONLY when compared to fair skin people:) And most of them have/will find their soul-mates. All those people are doing just fine...You, my friend has an issue with skin color!

I am not dismissing whatever happened to you with this guy, but really, honestly, he maybe a blessing in disguise. It's time to look within.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself. It won't help beyond some sympathy and empathy. Stop judging people by their looks and you'll be amazed that is what will they do towards you.

Stop focusing on everything you think is wrong with you and run with the positive things in your life: You are a graduate, you make good money, you are a good, caring and loving person (5)..this 5 positives have enough power to neutralize all the negatives you perceive in your life. AND, these 5 positives will exponentially multiply, I guarantee you...actually, the LAW OF ATTRACTION guarantees it:))

There's no quick fix, magic formula on IQ (trust me I looked:) Start by building your confidence. Take time to understand LOA, 'What you focus on expands' and other processes.

People haven't walked out on you all your life because THEY think you are not good looking, maybe, they have walked out on you all your life because YOU think YOU are not good looking.

Understand this difference and you'll be on your way to 'feeling good' about yourself regardless of your complexion, looks and degree of awesomeness.

I hope you take this in right spirit, I did say it was going to be 'tough love' answer:)

When I say matter from now on, I'm assuming general priorities of an ordinary person. Yes of course we could talk philosophies and stuff, but lets talk real life instead.

Person's nature matters indeed. But so does your looks. And everything related to you. See, it's a very big picture where everything's interconnected. Your thoughts, your attitude, what you think about yourself is displayed to the world through many ways - how you look, how you speak, how you carry yourself around. It's in your handshake, in your posture. I believe you can look the person in the eye and you'll just see right to their soul.

I see you are very troubled by your current looks. Well, I assume not only because of how others treat you, but also because you yourself don't quite like it. The important thing is not to look away from it. Don't try to justify your worth by drawing your focus on "being a nice person" or for example "being a good cook".

Apparently you would like to have a great relationship with someone. We all dream of it. But sometimes we are afraid to face our own demons and fix our own problems, we try to hard to bring that little light of ours shine a bit more by focusing on it. If you're a good cook, then you can become a chef in a restaurant, but don't expect to "catch" anyone on it. If you're a nice person, then you may help people in Salvation army, but again don't expect it to be a reason for having an exciting thrilling romantic relationship.

You want to look good? I'm sorry...great? Perhaps it's time to do something about it. Nobody was born "fat" or "skinny". And if you a person is one of those two, it's NOT a LABEL for LIFE! It's a temporary, momentary state in which they find themselves. It's a "right now" kind of a label, which can be thrown away the very next moment.

And if you don't like it - change it! See, people are generally afraid of UNKNOWN. That's the reason why they try to find ways to accept their current situation focusing on good side of it. Yes, you can go to a garbage can and maybe after several moments of searching you'll find a cookie that's half-way eatable. But is that really way to eat? Is that really way to live to be in an uncomfortable place, and try to find something good about it ONLY SO WE DON'T HAVE TO FACE OUR FEAR OF UNKNOWN - of the CHANGE? It's a sad life. That's what it is.

You might have already read, that the universe won't give you what you want, but who you are. So if you know what you want, and you know who you have to become to get it. Then do it! You CAN BE anyone YOU WANT! I've seen people lose over 100lbs, I'd never believe how just 15lb weight loss can create a WORLD of DIFFERENCE in someone's looks. You can be whoever you want! Just Don't be afraid of it! Ok?

Here, in short, I'm just trying to give a little of hope and perhaps help raise your confidence level. Go to youtube, search for motivational weight loss videos, and watch them. Let the inspiration and motivation of other people grow on you until it gets so big that it will move your fears away and you'll go and take life back into your hands. If you cry watching them, don't worry, I cry watching them too. It's rather emotional to see people so high in spirit and determination that they break all barriers and just shine.

I do the same thing, if I want something I surround myself with it. I let it grow on me until it gets so big and strong, it moves my life by itself.

There's so much more to it, and I'm sure a lot of people will have their say and perspective to share on this. This is just my 2 cents and advice from personal experience of what I would do. Sorry I haven't gone into a greater detail in specific topics, but it's really big as life and a month of writing wouldn't quite explain it all.

Don't be afraid of what you can be when you live with no fear. Don't compromise with yourself. Nor with anyone or anything. You want something, go get it. Period. There's always a way to have what you want. NEVER COMPROMISE!.

Whatever another person says or thinks of you is irrelevant... but how you think of yourself means everything.

The mind is a very powerful thing- what you choose to bring your focus to is going to expand, for better or worse. That means that if you entertain thoughts of fair skinned people being luckier and more beautiful than you, you are going to see more situations that make you feel that way. The key is- stop focusing on those thoughts and start paying attention to things that make you feel beautiful and special. :)

Fair skinned, dark skinned, thin, thick, short, tall... the question is, do you absolutely have to fall into a specific category to be beautiful? Beauty ranges over all the categories- everyone is beautiful in a different way. But you have to see your own beauty in order for others to see it.

So, disregard what others think of you. Stick to what you think of yourself, your opinion is the only one that matters. Know that you are beautiful and you do deserve love. But you have to be the one to see it... and when you do, things will change. :)

Take your attention away from the negative things... start looking at the positive. If it helps to exercise, meditate, or eat better, do that. If it gives you more confidence to dress well, do that. Think thoughts that make you feel good and do things that make you feel good.

No one is better than anyone else nor is anyone's opinions more valid than anothers... you are just as important and valuable as everyone else is. But we each are solely responsible for our thoughts and feelings... we cannot change the way another person thinks, but we always have the ability to change ourself.

Take advantage of that... fill your mind with beautiful things and feel good even if things aren't the way you wish they were. See how powerful that is?

What surrounds you is just a reflection of what you are thinking and feeling on the inside. Just like if you look in a mirror, you must smile first before your reflection smiles back.

Hi ISP , just came across this , you may find helpfull

http://www.pathwaytohappiness.com/writings_falsebeliefs.htm

theres also a pod cast included in the link

Wishing you Love and Light Always ...SL :-)

@insilentpain - As you explore this board you will find a common understanding that we attract what we think about, particularly when that thought is powered by emotion.

You have a pain-filled question. If you examine your focus, it is on how you look and that is why you think people are not interested in you.

The answers you get to your questions filter through your belief systems. This is universal to all of us.

I am reminded of a story where a woman who is dusky, plump, simply dressed but felt she has another major defect. She lost an eye and was only able to afford a replacement made of wood. It was beautifully painted and realistic, indistinguishable from a real eye but she felt everyone was looking at it and rejecting her.

One day she saw the man of her dreams, he seemed to be quite interested in her, so she approached him. As she got nearer, she noticed he was smiling at her and that that he had a slight harelip. But she was more focussed on her own wood eye and that he must be judging her accordingly.

Mustering up her courage, she walked up to him and asked, "Would you like to go out with me?"

His smile increased and he eagerly responded, "Would I?" She screamed, "Harelip! I don't want anything to do with you either!"

The Universe is trying to give us what we want, what will make us happy, but our belief systems can get in the way.

I suggest that you look for women who look like you. You may even find some women look worse than you. See how many are wearing wedding rings. You will be surprised at how many of these women are married. They have found men who like the way they look, fell in love and are having a good relationship. There are men out there who like the way you look!

You may even have a look at the tall, skinny, blond supermodels and see how many are single.

You are here, in this world, to be happy. It is your birthright. You came to Inward Quest because you have reached that point in your life where you are beginning to understand this, otherwise you would not be here.

Lastly, since you are just beginning here, you might think of a more positive Inward Quest board name, and re-register under that name. Do you want to be thought of as "InSilentPain"?