I fully understand your situation. My father had senile dementia (he passed away last Chrismas Eve). I am only child. It was only my mum and I to take care of him, family disappeared as if by magic when we most needed support, company and help. My father didn't recognize me, yelled at me, looked at me as if with disgust...a thing he wouldn't have ever done before: I was his 'pet'!!! He only seemed to be comfortable with my mum, but she had to work! We were alone and didn't have money enough for a 24hs-nurse.

I used to feel very hurt, frustrated and angry at him, and I spoke to my therapist about it. I said to her I didn't feel him as my father any longer as he didn't seem to love me anymore. She replied "You're right. He's not your father, the loving father you knew. It's the disease speaking through him now. You don't have to feel guilty about having those feelings, he's not himself anymore, senile dementia took him over."

All I can advise you is, go on with your meditation, anything that makes you feel better, and try to think that that negative person is not 'your mother' trying to pull you down. It's just the disease. Treat her kindly as you would with any ill person but don't allow her to pull you down. Your mother of old would have never done that to you.

I hope I could be of any help... My best wishes to you! xxx

BJ09

I have dealt with a old person that I really loved and I am here to tell you it is not easy for sometimes it is part of their personality for you are not going to tell me what to do and the other is their mental and physical body is weakening and I was able to give zinc and two more minerals, vitamin or herb but I can't remember what they were that really help her as long as I able to get her to take them.

The way to kept from being pull down into a lower vibrational frequency of you feeling bad, depressed, sad, and full of negatively and doubt is to stay prayed up to God is who I trust in believe in and Jesus Christ others may have a differently belief system. Than put up your own invisible force field of self protection of OK she is going to open her mouth and all kinds of negatively things are going to come out that could hurt me or make me feel bad but from now on I love her and I will do and take care of her but I will not let her hurt me emotionally. What words she says I will not let them come near me.

I understand you see you have a responsibility to see about your mother as she hopefully saw about you and have taken care of you that is so good of you. But you must ground your self in positive energies to lift you up emotionally which will raise up your vibrational frequency. If you like to read than read you a book that makes you feel good. Watch a funny movie, read funny jokes, take up a hobby that brings you great pleasure maybe drawing, learning how to play a instrument, taking up dance lessons just something creative to take your mind away from the negative drama for a while.

Now there are people that can clear your auras and energy fields to remove negative energies which will let in more positive energies into your life for your mother as well.

There are salt lamps which will absorbed the negative energies around you. There are crystals which will clear negative energies. There also are different gems which helps as well.

Also you said you have headaches I believe well we have a ego which likes to be in control and when we go against the grain or something it wants done it will try and stop us so you can literally say we are in a fight within our own selves.But those are blocks we may have put in place a long time ago.

I have been taking care of my brother in law for 18 years. He was my husband's brother and he had Schizophrenia since he was a teenager from what I heard from his family. He was 50 when he came to live with us because he has already stayed with everyone in his family for a short while and also half way houses. At that time he was not on medication because no one in the family wanted to admit he had a problem. I was not even told he had Schizophrenia when he came to live with us 6 months after his brother and I got married.

I found out he had a problem when he spent the weekend with a sister and burned their car down while sitting in it and watching the moon with the car running for hours outside in high grass. So then he became my responsibility and I had him put on medication just to be able to make him function. He also was paranoid and did not trust me and thought I was trying to poison him and only would take food and drink from his brother for the first few months.

He was not mean or anything like that, but very aggravating most of the time and living in the past when he was a good body man fixing cars. From what I heard from family he was real good and did work wonders, but he also was lazy and never stayed anywhere long. During Therapy sessions we attended in the beginning as a family, I did learn not to take anything from him personally and to mentally detach myself. I learned to view him like the teenager he was still in his mind, but not to treat him like one because he would rebel against it.

At that time I started reading lots of books from Joseph Murphy and Norman Vincent Peale, and I believe it was Dr. Peale who said if you are in a position where you really cannot change a person, to put yourself in the position of an observer or outsider, not a family member and view the other person as someone who cannot help what he is doing. In other words, mentally detach yourself from what is going on. He used to be full of negativity from his past. We started taking him to church with us and I worked with him to overcome his negativity, which took a very long time, but it did happen. He still lived in the past a lot, but not all the time anymore, and I learned not to touch the trigger points which would start it again.

We really started getting along very well and he would try very hard to please me. Usually I could bribe him with Ice cream or the promise to go out to eat, his favorite thing to do. When my husband, his brother died in Jan 2010 at only 54, my brother in law decided on his own to stay with me to help me out moneywise, b/c he was getting disability, not much, but it helped. Especially 1 sister tried to get him to move in with her b/c she wanted his disability money, and she did dump him twice previously. But he stood his ground and told her he was staying with me. Unfortunately, he died 6 months later after complications from surgery in the hospital. He was 67.

So, what I am trying to say is, try to detach yourself from the situation mentally by either doing focus blocks or start your day out with affirmations (my favorite), and remember your mother how she used to be and tell yourself that she does not want to be like this but she can't help it. You may have to see her as an unruly child who needs patience, love and gentle discipline to change the atmosphere in your house. I will keep you in my prayers for this change to happen.

I agree with explanation and advices you receive. I want add only some thoughts about what is happenning with your Mom and your attitude to face out.

About diagnosis. It must be established by a professional doctor psychiatrist (prefferable) or neurologist. Once formulated the larger frame of demential syndrome (characterized by gradually and continuously lowsring of intellectual abilities certainly manifested previously), doctor will searche the determining cause or causes. They could be more. Senile dementia is a diagnosis by exclusion of all other causes excepting the age. A severe hypothiroidy could be a cause and respond the best (comparatively with other causes), on course of some month, to the treatment with thyroidian hormone, adding vitamines (especially B1), antioxidants (Vit.E, C, Selenium), zinc, fat-acid omega-3 (very important) alphalipoic acid (very imp.), pholic acid, lecitin, minerals. On the second level of chances is the dementia-like syndrome caused by a benign (non-cancerous) cerebral tumor in the region prefrontal of brain, relatively easy to operate. If the diagnosis of your mother is certain and clear, remains the care along the evolution.

The behaviour of suffering individual. Dementia is an mental illness, caused commonly by the significant diminution of number of neurons from brain cortex, except the two above mentioned conjunctures (on hypothiroidy, for long time dominates the biochemical disturbances and by compression for benigne tumors; in the post-traumatic dementia, the cortex could lack totally on a delimitated portion of brain. What is important for you to know, is that dementia is a mental illness and, only in the initial phases of evolution, the subject can somewhat control himself. Often the ill juxtaposits an incredible clear reason with the absurd and ne is totaly blind tu see this. The insiste to convince him about absurdum generates hostility or just violence. He knows by instinct (sobconscious)that he is threatened by an invisible, big, vital danger and search on outside the source of. Ideas as "all the world is againt me"exprimes this anxious presentiment and is one belonging to the paranoia deviation of the thinking. The subject has yet enoudh mind for records some inadvertences around himself, but not enough mind for discern their source, especialy not discerns own inabilities. It is a state appreciated in the judiciary psychiatry as irresponsability for own acts and sayings and Justice brought in a verdict of "not guilty" (based on a preliminary psychiatric expertise). But to be "not guilty" exclude not the potential to dangerous acts.. You need look the situation by this perspective.

Your required attitude. You need understanding that your Mom khows you are for her the only footing in the world, the last floating board from the shipwreck of his life. This is why spasmodically catches you. But this don't means that let yourself drowning together with her. The professional salvamar man knows the technics against this compulsive behaviour and don't let himself to be immobilized by the disperate drowning man: or can colaborate with him or take some physical distance within they, or immobilizes the drowning man. For this you don't need selfish, but you need reason and imagination, for taking the necrssary. How? With kindness but firmly, with love but not submissively, with patience but not letting to be overwhelmed, with compassion, serenity and consciously but living your life. It is possible

What don't take never: not contradict, not say "you aren't right"; use insteed formule with "maybe", "perhaps", "I wonder this", "I don't know to be..."

At sure, work intensively for rise you vibration. This will help to both: You and your Mom.

I pass through the same experience along 14 years and I end it without any culpability feeling. It's true: don't have be easy. Anyone can do it. You can also.

I suggest learning EFT and using it and also teach it to your mother. I read that it has helped with these things. I hope your mother is doing well. I am sorry you have this burden to bear. EFT would help you both so much. Blessings and peace

I sympathise with your situation cause I was and still am in some ways on the same boat. Despite having that its your mother,brother,sister whoever they do not have the control over you to make you feel as negative as they want you to feel. Can I suggest a trip or vacation ? Or taking her out for a walk to pleasant places. It would be hard for her to stay negative around positive surroundings. Make her think about good memories. This has surely been mentioned to you before. Try something different to catch her off guard that would surprise her. Remember she has no control to make you feel misery. Im telling you be detached while remaining intuned to what shes saying and doing. Its going to be an ongoing battle maybe unless she gets an awakening or some form of healing that you have to help her find. Its not going to be easy but if you accomplish this you will grow by leaps and bounds. I sincerely hope this helps.