A hundred-year-old man has spent thirty-three years of his total life asleep. That is quite a lot of time. And while asleep, the subconscious mind rules the roost. We awaken after sleep with dream images, and perhaps a feeling from sleep, which seems to fade rather quickly.But that amount of time is huge. Imagine that that man spent thirty three years in college, for example. Or at a job- as most of us do- we would become experts after all that time...and so on. But with a third of our lives spent under the control of our subconscious mind, is it possible that that mind could really have much more influence over our lives than we have been led to believe?

But I also wonder: Is it possible that we are more a sum of all our subconscious impulses, including our dream states, than our conscious mind? This would explain a lot of strange things that never used to make sense to me.

Since I was abused as a child, and repressed my abuse, I believe that sometimes those powerful and frightening experiences drive me out of a sheer desire to survive. I sometimes seem to choose surviving instead of thriving, for example.

Help me to puzzle this out. What can you say to help me understand this? What rules the roost- thee subconscious or the conscious?

Thanks,

Jai