I used to be in your shoes.

I used to imagine break-ups, I loved sad music, I loved violent films, I loved "drama" and finding excuses to cry. It sounds weird, because don't get we wrong, we all wanna feel good, yet at the moment you are in an emotional phrase gravitating towards things that carry it on.

Don't worry, it'll pass soon with sufficient acceptance of it and just doing whatever you can to feel as best as you can in your life (even if its only for 3% of the day to start with).

I used to feel so tragic its not funny. I loved watching the end scene to The Phantom of The Opera late at night and sort of enjoyed the drug-like experience of being sad. I would relate with Phantom to how a girl had broken my heart and rejected me. "Oh Boo-Hoo Nikulas" I would say to my past self now.

All I can say is that I experienced some very dark times. I feel many on this website have gone through great tragedy despite I don't know exactly what it was. For me it was a family breakup and the idea of not being able to find true love.

The dark times have served me to become the hot knight in shining armour I am today. Whilst I refrain from offering you any specific tips on how to cope, hold onto the message that you will get though this bad time, yes, permanently, forever, at some time.

You can even witness some personal dramas pop up on IQ from time to time; people's Hell unleashes and its ugly. I, for one, was one of them. But I bless that dark time for giving me the tools I have to this day. Life is amazing now, I usually spend 80% of my week in a state of bliss. Try to believe me, gonna have that one day :)

I really encourage other users to offer their words of advise to you right now.

One final thing; if you're feeling bad most of the time, read and visit this website first thing in the morning after waking. You will process information best when you are feeling better opposed to feeling worse xx

Its ok Fizza 26, your cool, theres nothing wrong with you.

Heres some advice, it wont cost you anything, it wont hurt you...so try it.

Go on youtube, search for Robert Smith Faster EFT. Then look up video 306. Listen to it about a dozen times. It may seem at first to have absolutely nothing to do with your question...but stick with it.

Then act on it.

This will really help you.

Happy things make you sad. I have been in that place. Sometimes you need to take time off. You need to switch things and find new happiness. This happened to me years ago. I felt anything spiritual and loving was a load of bologna! I couldn't stand it any more I stopped writing my God Consciousness Experiments, I left SDDlightworkers not because of anything to do with them or my friends it was because I fell into depression. My ex-girlfriend left me at the time and so I fell then slowly sunk deeper into depression. I needed out so I went searching to find something else. For I think it was two years I frequented an Atari fan web site where I learned to hack old Atari 2600 games into new games. I made quite a few but my crowning achievement was turning Food Fight into Mad Max. One of the top dogs there noticed my work and asked if he could take it and work on it. I agreed and it actually became a limited cartridge I own #2.

I slowly came out and back to spiritual as can be seen here on IQ but for the longest time it was like I had killed off that Wade like one of the space invaders in the video game of the same name. However I'm back to my spiritual self again.

You may need a break, I believe our Nikulas here took this same advice I am now giving you and left for a while. It did him good, he is back now and doing well. :-)

Sometimes a non-drug pill is a good thing. I know of several people who completely eliminated severe depression with some specially formulated vitamins. You could consider this process:

http://www.bio-recoveryinc.com/Drepression_Formulas.htm

Hoping the best for you because you deserve to feel good.