What should you do, then? First of all, you must realize that you are the hypnotist. You must seize the initiative here as you have in other positive aspects of your life. Whatever the superficial reasons for your beliefs, you must say:

For a certain amount of time I will momentarily suspend what I believe on this area,and willfully accept the belief I want. I will pretend that I am under hypnosis, with myself as hypnotist and subject. For that time desire and belief will be one. There will be no conflict because I do this willingly. For this period I will completely alter my old beliefs. Even though I sit quietly, in my mind I will act as if the belief I want were mine completely.

At this point do not think of the future, but only of the present. If you are overweight, insert the weight that you think is ideal for you while you are following this exercise. Imagine that you are healthy if you have the belief that you are not. If you are lonely, believe that you are filled with the feeling of companionship instead. Realize that you are exerting your initiative to imagine such situations. Here there can be no comparison with your normal situation. Use visual data, or words-whatever is most natural to you. And again, no more than ten minutes is required.

If you do this faithfully, within a month you will find the new conditions materializing in your experience. Your neurological structure will respond automatically. The unconscious will be aroused, bringing its great powers to bear, bringing you the new results. Do not try to over do this, to go through the entire day worrying about beliefs, for example. This can only cause you to contrast what you have with what you want. Forget the exercise when it is completed. You will find yourself with impulses that arrive in line with these newly inserted beliefs, and then it is up to you to act on these and not ignore them.

The initiative must be yours. You will never know unless you try the exercise. Now if you are in poor health, and have a physician, you had better continue going to him, because you still rely on that system of belief- but use these exercises as supplements to build up your own sense of inner health, and to protect you against any negative suggestions given by your doctor. Utilize the belief in physicians since you have it.

Source: The Nature of Personal Reality (A Seth Book)- Session 659

Stress. Stress stress stress. Nothing worse for you than stress. It can cause symptoms worse than many illnesses. I know it's a bit useless telling people not to stress when they have stressful situations, but really it's the best advice you can give.

Decide what the possible outcomes are, accept that you'd keep on going in either case, then do whatever you need to do to encourage the outcome you desire while putting no more wasted time or thought contemplating outcomes you've already figured out. If there is nothing you can do to help your situation, consider if there are any ways for you to make it possible for you to help your situation. If there's nothing you can do and no way for you to change it, then you should turn your focus to ways you can accept your situation better. Things you enjoy, things to distract you, find new (and old) sources of entertainment.

Being more accepting and less critical can have excellent impacts on this. Usually being critical towards anything comes as a consequence of being ultra critical of yourself. Perhaps there is a part of yourself you're not accepting of. I know it can be hard to decide to be less stressed when there are parts of your life causing it, but you have to find ways to rationalize it (or decide you need no rationalization). Convince yourself you're strong and will keep on living and being happy irrelevant of what happens.

Some people like to say "it could always be worse". I don't like it because I feel like it's putting my attention in the wrong direction, of all of the different ways it could get worse. Instead I'd focus on how it can get better, even if simply by choosing to be happier in the exact same circumstances. If you could change nothing else about a moment but whether or not you were positive or negative, wouldn't the positive one be the side you'd rather stay on when possible? Whether you look at it spiritually or logically the answer seems to always be enjoy life, it just makes sense.

Oh, and you're fine, your soul is fine. All it means is God only gives us what we can handle so God decided you're awesome and have a bit more gunk to work through than some. It gives you a chance to help and inspire other people in need, like myself. What good would a healer be if they couldn't / didn't empathize with their patients?

I believe Snow summed it up best - " you're fine, your soul is fine". Please allow me to reiterate & reinforce:**

There is nothing wrong with your soul, Jai!

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Wade's Mother may have a point.

Patron saints are chosen as special protectors or guardians over areas of life. These areas can include occupations, illnesses, churches, countries, causes - anything that is important to us.

As for St Matthew - Some believe he is the Patron Saint of Money & pray to him to intercede (meaning help them with their financial problems). Most Catholics believe he is the Patron Saint of Finance - Tax Collectors , Accountants, Stock Brokers, etc.

St Matthew's gospel was all about being in the Now. Matthew 6:25 - 6:34 - to paraphrase Matthew 6:34.

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"Don't worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself." ~ Matthew 6:34

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Sounds like Saint Matthew is talking about the LOA here.

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"So I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." ~ Matthew 21:22

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I read your answers to two questions posted on Monday. Both times you mentioned your 'past'. I know Wade is a fan of The Secret. Monday's quote was:

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"There is no past or future for the law of attraction, only the present, so stop referring to your life in the past as very difficult, or full of hardship and pain, or in any other negative way.

Remember that the law> only operates in the present, so when > you speak of your past life negatively the law is receiving your words and sending those things back to you NOW." ~ Rhonda Byrne

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Personally, I'm not into reading the Bible - I prefer listening to the Beatles. Maybe you will to.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0714IbwC3HA

Just a thought - I wonder, did you have a chiropractic treatment recently? You mentioned "intensive" chiropractic treatment. I think it would be wise if you laid off these treatments for a while & see if you start feeling better. Don't get me wrong, I believe strongly in chiropractic treatment; however it is often times contraindicated for people who have chronic conditions & chronic emotional problems such as yours. I would never recommend "intensive" chiropractic treatments for anyone with a chronic condition - chiropractors - yes; intensive - NO.

Since you don't work & seem to have a lot of time on your hands - perhaps when you get your voice back & can get around, you could try helping or giving your time to someone else (volunteering) - may get your mind off your own worries.

Plenty of ppl have illness etc and joyful souls. In everything we go through or do it's still about learning to love and accept ourself and life and trusting that we will be allright. More fine tuning toward what we want. Making sure we don't have split vibrations- even the idea of wanting to be taken care of can be a belief that could lead to illness, so tweaking that belief to include in health and awesome circumstances is one idea of my own.