I've been allowing and it's been a huge help for the most part. But I find that when I allow completely that I lash out at people and I find myself acting out on negative impulses no matter how much I try not to act on them.

Today a number of things pushed my buttons and I felt way more bothered by them than I usually do. I regret my behavior and I would like to know why this sometimes happens.

I regret ever feeling entitled to act this way in front of others. I feel like I've hurt myself more than anyone else.

It's like one moment i'm in the flow and the next i'm in a terrible mood. I don't always act the way I did today. Today let let go and trusted completely and it put me in a very agitated state somehow. My fight or flight responses kicked in. And I started absorbing negative energy around me and acted on some of my negative feelings.

I would like some more clarity as to how I was led to what happened. I hope this can turn out for the better. I would appreciate some of your insight.

Thank You Much!