Hey questers,

I have a question regarding negative feelings- not particularly for a manifestation but mostly because I have not felt this way in a long long time- this way meaning negative worry-frustration-sometimes despair even (?) and I really really dont like this one single bit because I have not felt this way for so long and I dont understand why NOW is the time I am feeling this way- let me explain- ever since I started my journey with becoming a conscious creator almost everyday i fluttered in the vortex (not ALL day but EVERY day) and generally I have gotten used to after a couple of weeks that even after something would occur that I did NOT like and the old me would probably cry 2 weeks over- the new me was focused, I understood the process, I first of all understood that everything is fixable and nothing is permanent and usually all the 'negative manifestations' I had were a co-creation with my ever so lovely mother and stepfather, the worlds Most Negative People That Kill Dreams Faster Than I Could Say 'I want to become a painter someday'. So long story short, I was focused, I was meditating, walking, spending time alone THINKING and deciding what I wanted in life- did so much soul work and totally transformed my way of looking at myself and the world and in the backdrop of that my ever so lovely parents decided that I was losing it- walking alone and being alone and smiling when my phone screen cracked and saying: my own fault guess Im gonna have to go to the apple store tomorrow- lol- their faces- so they decided I was crazy and told me they wanted me OUT because they were worried (yes that is the exact explanation I am still looking for the logic in that one) so I again, saw this as an AMAZING opportunity- the fact I had no work- a master thesis to complete- no family relatives friends anyone I could stay with- i did not blink a freaking eye and I did my vibrational work like a BOSS and you know what happened? Everything! I manifested an amazing house where I can stay for 3 months FOR FREE- its a womens shelter- for women involved in domestic abuse- a safe home where they can relax with their kids and build a new life- well guess what there are currently zero point zero women in my city that have this problem so guess who lives in a huuuuuuuge 3 story villa in the center of the city- with electric guarded fences and 159000 rooms,free wifi, FOOD (I buy my own because I dont want to be like totally a pig but STILL if i needed it i would have it) i have no more parents to insult me and try every day to bring me down and generally being mad at me for becoming a happy person- I can finish my thesis in calmness, I can search for a house peacefully, i have super fast internet and a bathtub and an amazing room and everything and even more manifested exactly the way I wanted it and I actually did not expect anything less BUTTT

BUTT NOW THE BUTT

I feel like ****. like literally i feel nervous, shaking, worried, anxious, i am noticing that i am beginning to speak mean to myself- becoming enraged when i fumble or drop something all of the sudden- and i dont understand

i have exactly what i wanted- i wasnt having these emotions WHEN I DID NOT KNOW WHERE I WOULD SLEEP IN 2 WEEKS YET NOW I HAVE WHAT I WANT AND ITS LIKE IM NERVOUS FOR THE THING THAT ALREADY DID NOT HAPPEN- TO HAPPEN ANYWAY

what is this?

help me PLEASE, this is driving me crazy- i thought it was maybe just because of the sudden change from family enviroment- but i still live in the same city- i still go to the same drugstore- i am now left alone without hateful parents and negative energy- i have WIFI and food and EVERYTHING and it has been 4 days now and im starting to think this wont just go away after sleeping- keep in mind I have been doing vibrational work since January 2016- more than a year ago- I have not had such a low state for more than a couple of hours after consistently focusing my emotions- Its like I all of the sudden CANT do it- although i KNOW it works because it did ! like im so frustrated! please help me and maybe explain what the hell is going on?? Is this normal? Has anyone had this happen to them? What should I do??

Thank you and sorry for this dramatic form of asking its just I write how i feel and by all the exclamation points i think its pretty obvious i feel !!!!!! like that!!!!????