hi Nikulas, i truly understand your question because i had the same experience somthing like 7 years ago. i also had a friend who told me that i cant finish any task, not even finish one siggaret. and that made me really think.. i couldnt stay hold a job, or a relationship (even if i was happy in it), i couldnt finish books, and the list goes on haaaaa. it got me really frustrated.

i had aperiod in my life when i found a job after graduated university and only 6 month later started new stusy in a completly new field and found another job. and wanted to leave this job too, but didnt (yet :) )

for me it was a commitment issue.
i wasnt commited to myself inough to make good decisions. i was more commited to other people and there choices. once i decided to make a comitment to myself and be my best friend it wa alot easier to understad what i want, and to select from all choices. when i was commited to other , EVERYTHING looked great to me and kind of fit me because i looked at everything not through my eyes but through the eyes of everyone. it like "my friend would like it so i like it too" but it was so subconsciously that i couldnt recognize it, and really thought that i like it.

everything start with being commited to self. love self. do the best for self. not pleasing others, please yourself. when you know your self it is easy to know what you want to do now and whats more fun - swimming or meditation. and it could be both but not at the same momment.

i also want to add that there is a big conflict. becuse learning the law of attraction i thought i was doing just great loving everything and everyone, and being connected .... but the missing piece was myself. i forgot to be connected to myself. i saw everything and all possibilities for everyone but for me and me (and thought it was the other way around). so again - it is really crucial to love self first.

It will be your sincere belief in a particular method that results in the desired outcome. Any method will work if you believe it will work. For an additional boost of power to that belief, choose a method you might actually enjoy, one that "excites" you. You can invent your own method if you like. It will work just as well. My advice is to keep it simple. Avoid methods that require a complex process or are overly time consuming. After making your choice, create an affirmation.

For example: It is my desire to improve my overall mood. It is my intention to improve my overall mood. I Believe I will improve my mood if I practice Ti Chi daily.

With a simple affirmation, I am announcing my Desire, Intention, and Belief. Now, all I need to actually do is to practice Ti Chi daily with out any expectations or thoughts of the outcome.

Information overload provides an abundance of ideas (beliefs) from which we can choose. The challenge in dealing with so much information is choosing what to take in and what to leave out when it comes to adopting someone elses beliefs. Even though all their beliefs are valid, they may not neccessarily be helpful for the reality you are trying to create for yourself. One persons life affirming belief might become a limiting belief for someone else. It's not a question of if it's true. It's a question of if it's for you.

I hope this helps. I would suggest you reference Bashar on the topic of "permission slips" for some reinforcement of this idea.

I find that Bashar's method is the best method I have ever seen to make choices- and, undoubtedly, he is emphasizing it so much because it is so well suited to our age- the golden age of options.

I suggest you discontinue all other methods until you master Bashar's- you already know it, you seem to like Bashar, and everything else you mentioned seems to describe the problem fairly well but offers no real systematic solution.

Diagnosing what you are doing wrong in order to crash and burn with Bashar, the first clue is right in your description of your attempt: You are pressuring yourself to act on your excitement. Friend, that's doomed to fail- you don't pressure yourself to do anything. Pressure sets up conflict which sets up resistance which diminishes your energy, and, predictably, nothing will work at all.

What you do is the opposite- you relax. Perhaps that is the challenge for you in general, to relax into anything, so I would suggest you start working with everything and anything that relaxes you. You could watch a lot of Bashar holotope stuff, or you could do a Nalu from Huna: Gently gaze at something, for example a flower or something you imagine. Experiment. What are things that have relaxed you most in the past? What have been situations where you knew you don't have to do anything, don't have to be anywhere, don't have to take charge at all?

No worries- you will be taking charge, no one wants you to be a piece of driftwood and you do belong in the driver's seat. What we want to counter-influence is excessive control- you want to stop micro-managing yourself. In general, what you can control as a human being is your imagination and your focus, so you use that ability to direct your attention towards progressively more exciting images, feelings, smells, words, energy patterns and actions. But that's all- you control the attention, but you don't control those feelings, those smells, those words, and so on- they are already there. Even if they are happening in your own body, you do not control them any more than you, for example, directly control your digestion or your heartbeat.

Again, no worries there- you can still be in charge of those areas of yourself, and it is wise to be, by talking to your heart and directing it to do what it does better, or talking to your digestion to do what it does more smoothly and bring about more energy, but you are not doing those things- you are only holding your attention and an intention. You are not making anything happen, you are holding an intention in your mind using the control you already possess over your attention, and expecting something to happen- but you are not doing the happening. It's a fine line.

Control vs. Influence is a great way to explain it- you have complete control over your attention- intend to think of the color red, for example, and there it is, every time. But you only hold considerable influence over your body- you can tell it what to do, but you can't make it do anything it is not already inclined to do. For the entire world, you hold an even more indirect influence- there, all you can do is think the most desirable thoughts you can come up with, and let the universe unfold your experience in a symbolically related way that may not be anything like your thoughts at all- except that it is a perfect symbolic representation of what you had in mind. That's going to have to be good enough, and, I assure you, it is.

So, knowing this, how limited and yet how perfectly appropriate your control is, after swallowing that pill, so to speak, when you know what you can control and what you can't (just your attention and your imagination), your ability to influence will skyrocket because your theory of the universe has become correct, and you will no longer be setting up unnecessary resistance by trying to control something you inherently can't.

So do Bashar's method. When a feeling of pressure arises- stop. Tell yourself to let go. Intend to think the most exciting thought you can in the friendliest way you can, as if you are presenting a game to a child. What would be the most exciting thing I could think about right now?

And since you are no longer attempting you control, you can take whatever comes up. If you think it's silly- and you just might- well, go for it if you can, but ask for something else that's just as good if you can't. You could even ask for the most exciting thing you can come up with right now that is easy for you to accept. Then just go with that for a while.

In evaluating your success, there are no shoulds. Bashar's method refers to coming up with the most exciting thing to think about- He doesn't say anywhere that you are supposed to actually manifest it. Whatever needs to manifest will- you are only supposed to use images to get yourself into a certain energy state. It's not your job to pick what gets physical, that's the universe's job. So take that silly little thing that excites you and decide that, whatever it is, it makes you lovable and good and a child of God that you are excited about that. That's what they call liberating the inner child- going with what excites you, not judging it, and playing with it, until you want to play with something else. Can you see how relaxing and simple this suddenly becomes, regardless of what circumstances you may be in? You can still keep dealing with things as you are used to in your regular life ares, but you will always have this time of day to go to where it is only the time for playing with exiting little thoughts you came up with, and nothing else, and over time, that will influence your ingrained everyday life and soften it, and it will shift and start growing into something much more friendly and reflective of who you really are- and that alone is a wonderfully enjoyable process and you are quite to be envied for it.

Enjoy, friend!