What the heck is going on with me I am an Atheist and I'm not suppose to believe in such nonsense. What is my next step? Should I meditate or something? I am totally confused!!!

you really are grasping on to this label that you have put on yourself being an atheist 'and all'- obviously reading all of your questions i can solve this situation for you very quickly.

you are not an atheist anymore.

that time has passed. there have been several occurrences in your life that have changed your perception of things and now you are exploring the change inside yourself, holding on to labels you have stuck to before these changes is not only slowing you down from actually understanding yourself, it also looks silly.

the very reason people are naming themselves atheists, in my opinion, is because they refuse to go with the religious stream- which has its faults i think, and they want the freedom to say that they do not agree with what society wants them to agree with, just because society wants them to and they themselves have no evidence or proof of such- but what you are doing now is quite the same, by sticking to this label of atheism you are actually doing exactly what the religious are doing- denouncing everything outside of itself and firmly staying put in their own made-up labels and not wanting anything to do with others nor acknowledging that there even is something else- dont be like that, like them- isnt that why standard religion and the church is so distant to what you know to be true? try opening your heart to all possibilities- even those that are different to what you say you are- being an atheist and all.

P.S. meditation is always a good idea.

he can't fathom such a
magnificent being as
**** sapiens by chance,
order is in all that of nature

flying serpents perhaps
once upon a time

You could have told us about those wings without mentioning that your are an atheist. Yet, you did mention it! This is perhaps a clue to what may be going on. You are having a mystical experience, no doubt of that. But can a person have such an experience while being atheist? It is hard to believe one thing without the other- you can feel the wings, and yet they are outside normal experience. I imagine that you have heard of angels, and that maybe they have wings. I suppose that all of this is challenging your belief system. Can one be an atheist and have spiritual experiences? I don't know, but I have to call this a spiritual experience.

I believe that people have auras, which is energy surrounding the body. I use this energy when I do Reiki healings. I suppose you could go as far as to believe that the aura exists without any belief in a deity. Usually, though, people who can feel and use the aura are deists of some sort. I have never heard of someone feeling these wings without feeling also a connection to a Higher Power.

What I suggest will perhaps cause you to examine your belief system. What use would you have for feeling these wings other than for a spiritual purpose? You are not hallucinating. This feeling is real. So may be you are being led to spiritual path. That is probably pretty scary, I am sure. But try not to be too worried about it. It sounds like you are being led to an awareness of other people in need. Angels help people in need, and often surround these people to help them. I would just pay attention to when you do feel these wings, and try to make a connection to this feeling and your surroundings. If you are being led to something, try just going with it. It cannot hurt.

My spirituality has pulled me forward into some great experiences. I really have not been hurt by going with what I feel. One day, I was sitting with Wade in his bedroom at his parent's house. I suddenly felt that someone was peering over my right shoulder, and pointing to his desk. I gave into in to it, and told Wade that someone was telling me that something important that Wade needed was hidden on his desk. That desk was full of stuff, including a stack of spiral notebooks. I was directed to tell him to look in those notebooks for what he was missing. Sure enough, in the second notebook, some important documents were there. Wade had forgotten that he had put them there.

I cannot explain this experience without believing that someone outside of existence was directing me. Perhaps you are being directed, too! Just yield to it, and stay open-minded. Who knows what will come next? Good luck!

Blessings,

Jaianniah

Being an atheist, but feeling a pull toward the spiritual, you may be interested in Buddhism. There are different types, some like Tibetan Buddhism believe in many Gods, but others don't believe in God at all. Check out this link.

http://www.buddhanet.net/ans73.htm

But there are many stories the Buddha did miracles like Jesus did.

God is called many things, super-consciousness, universal-consciousness, unified-field, even the Matrix.

Science has found that matter is sometimes waves, so it can be frequency or what we call matter. Using quantum physics, you could say they found the beginning. I'll get back to that momentarily, they also found their expectation or observation changed the outcome. There is an old mystery school saying, thought directs energy. Thought creates frequency, this thought could be thought of as the word of creation. So if thought directs energy and energy becomes matter then we have the beginning, all is chaotic frequency, the thought comes in and entrains this frequency into organization that becomes matter.

So we know if we are constantly affecting our environment by our thought or to use old word understanding our word, we can through directed focus affect matter as we focus and believe. If however we do not believe we will have an affect, we will not. Henry Ford said, "I believe I can, or I believe I can't, either way I'm correct." Harry Palmer said, "Everything we experience is because of what we believe, unless we believe it isn't, then it isn't, which means it is."

Now, if we look at all existence as energy and frequency, thought controls energy and frequency then it stands to reason thought is over existence. If thought is over existence then there is the being that we are that could be called the child being and the over being of pure consciousness the adult being, these could be seen as two but are really two frequencies of one existence. Sort of like you must climb the trunk of a tree to get to the branches. So if we think our selves as that which affects the universal-mind and that universal-mind affects matter, we see that we affect that which we focus on with intent and belief that will be done.

Those that were awakened like Jesus or Buddha affected reality directly, those that believed themselves separate and believed a separate higher being will answer, prayed and their prayers are answered.

The reason why, as Jesus said, it was your faith. In other words their belief that what they wanted would be done. In other words their word coupled with their belief was their focus thus affecting the higher consciousness to affect reality, and so it was answered.

We have various levels of consciousness, each affects all, we have the Unconscious sleep state also Subconscious that has beliefs and fears, the Waking Conscious, that is the fully alert, fully aware of what is around state. Now if we take that further there is the Christ consciousness and finally the God Consciousness.

Our awareness resides in whatever consciousness we happen to be using, for example while dreaming in sleep we are not even aware that the waking conscious exist let alone experiencing being it.

Those that meditate can get to those higher levels. Also another thing, what we see, hear, feel and taste are very limited band width of frequency. We can't see in the ultra-violet or the Infrared that does not mean nothing exist in those frequencies, we just can't see what is there in those frequencies. We can't see radio frequencies but we can hear them. This doesn't mean that if we had somehow eyes that could see those frequencies that there wouldn't be something to see. As a matter of fact sound frequencies can be seen as intricate patterns in sand on speakers. So this shows there is something to be seen by the affect it has.

So because you feel these wings and you saw them in your mind because you described them, if others can't see them does that mean they are not there?