Hi Bridget Jones

I remember reading somewhere that Einsteins teachers thought that he was barely literate!

I also read that Winston Churchills school report said that he would never amount to anything!

Take it on the chin and keep right on going the way you are.

If your being unappreciated and misunderstood your in very illustrious company.

Graham

The "disturbing aspect" is coming from the fact that you are "moving". Old habits doesn't work anymore. This is annoying for people, because, as we all are, people are "lazy" or like "habits". It's easy, understood, not question to be asked, etc. Now that you behave differently, it asks them to change their mind too. And it's "energy consuming". So, this is the first reaction : "It-was-easier-before-you-changed" kind of feeling. ("Easier" must be seen as "comfortable".

BUT (There is always a but), as you are moving with a sense, your new way of life is better for you and this will be discovered in a second time by the people around you. Because you will be a more interesting person, etc. Profit will come for them too. At least the one who have a real relationship with you (not the one that took advantage of the past way of being - you may loose them, but it should be a good thing for you too :-) )

When you change and grow, you make the people around you who are not making the effort to change and grow insecure because they are afraid of getting left behind. Their feeling is justified, though their complacence is not.

It is hard for them because they have been so use to the way you were your entire life - except these last 9 months.

When you grow sometimes the person may see it as you trying too hard and it may look unnatural to them. However, over time it will be come an effortless part of you and then it will not seem like there is a gap in your being.

One thing people may do when they start growing is to "make sure" others are aware of their changes by doign things to try to impress or "show" them through some other actions.

This is where others may get confused and lead to some of the things you mentioned.

But if that is not the case, you are fine, never feel bad to grow.

As you shake off your old cellfs, those around you (who await their cue in the game you have all played and are still playing) will react with survival instincts. To many, a self is something solid and stable, never to change or alter or grow or develop. Others have no idea who they'll be in the next interaction they encounter. As you alter your reality, those still upholding 'reality' will do what they can to uphold it, including hating on you and your changes.

Change is all there is.

You seem to be happier with the 'new' you. However, you also seem to be seeking the approval of others for the 'new' you.

And I think it is the fear that others might not approve of the 'new' you that if causing you to attract such behaviour from others.

If you keep enjoying being the 'new' you and start caring less about others opinions towards you, you will start attracting better from them.

There is no 'This person is doing this to me' or 'That person is behaving in such a way towards me' in an attraction based universe. There is only 'I am attracting everything in my reality, including the specific behaviour of others towards me'.

I have been going through the same thing recently, what I discovered that my family harshness pained me because I needed to work on myself from the inside. I needed to discover why I chose to be upset in moments like this.

Let us rejoice change together: out with the old Cloak on you, and in with the new Cloak on you. Turn around for everyone to see the new you, rejoice and share, everyone is near, yet far away, happy, happy days are ahead of you. Let no one shadow your doubts, or leave you behind, climb aboard for everyone to see the new you shine, and welcome you, not once, but twice!