I have been into this stuff as far back as I can remember starting from my childhood.

And so naturally, there have been many "turning point" moments along the way.

One such turning point that is relevant to this forum happened, I think, about 10years ago.

I was reading everything that I wanted to know about and trying to really absorb the meaning within the information.

And I was struck by the "How do I know if this is what I am supposed to know" question.

Not only that, I was also trying to find a method by which I could trust a particular understanding upon which I could relax my consciousness without being burdened by the "how do I know if this is right" battle raging endlessly within myself.

Intuition was starting to open up and I could recognize it, but didn't know if It was "Me" that I can trust, or if it was deception, perhaps from some other source pretending to be intuition.

And so I surrendered with all sincerity and yearned for guidance and a sign that I could trust.

I don't remember for how long I yearned for this guidance, but one day I felt and electricity like energy coming down my spine, like a spark.

It was brief, but it made me shiver all over, not in a bad way, but in a good and comforting way (friendly)

The timing was so obvious that I slowly asked within my mind "is this the sign of guidance" and right away I felt it again.

Of, course. I wasn't satisfied right away with this, for I needed to be sure.

So I tested this sign over the next approx. 4 months at various times by asking specific questions and asking for guidance. And it never showed up every time I asked.

But here's what's amazing. The sign showed up every time I needed guidance and I was a little bit un-sure.

But not at the surface of my presence. On the surface I was pretending to myself that I knew what I was doing. But many levels deep within myself, deeper than before I could think about it, whenever there was a need for "hand holding" this sensation of energy would show up, to reassure me that I'll be OK with that decision.

They were little moments like going on a long trip somewhere, and getting lost and not knowing if the idea that popped into my head to "go that way" could be trusted. Whenever I had doubt about "is this OK? Should I do this?" and when the need was really sincere, and not a superficial game to test if this is coincidence, this spark of energy always came through like the loving embrace of a gentle guide.

It never leads me down the wrong path, but it took me a long time to trust it unconditionally. I kept asking for a long time "how do I know if you are not deceiving me?"

Then I began to trust this sensation unconditionally for it never failed to bail me out or put me in danger.

But it never showed up when I commanded it to guide me. It always knew when I really needed help, and in that moment, it always was my companion of re-assurance.

Now it is a normal part of my life and has been for about 10 years.

But I can feel that this is just a glimpse of what is humanly available to us.

How do I know that? because when I quietly feel within myself "I know this is just the tip of the iceberg" this sensation sends this re-assuring energy down my spine (I felt it right now as I am writing this) as If to say "why do you doubt yourself? You know that that thought is correct"

Much of my confidence in what I hold on to comes from the fact that I was fortunate to stumble on my own source of guidance to lean on and didn't need the "If others also believe this to be true, then I know this is true" method of arriving at a certain understanding.

I guess I am sharing this to encourage others to find their own way to trust the self within for guidance, and that if need be, one can ask for a clear and dependable means to be awakened instead of falling back on endless analysis and comparison with the outside what must be sought after on the inside.