I agree that it is much better to focus on the positive, rather than try to eliminate the negative.

Actually I had a very nice experience two days ago - I managed to get to the highest state I've ever reached. I was not only in the vortex, I was in complete joy and love. I was walking around with a huge smile, singing in my head, dancing and just feeling fantastic. And without mentioning all the vibrational matches I had in that state, I had two social events while I was in that state - one with my family, and the other with a group of friends that I'm not usually 100% comfortable with.

I was like a different person. Everyone was very, very positive towards me, I felt free and completely released, and just enjoyed the experience. Only after that I had realized I did not have any negative thoughts about my self esteem.

So the thing is to be firmly in your vortex before meeting other people. But not only that - because it is very easy at first to get kicked out of the vortex - you must practice it for a while, a few days to a few weeks, in order to achieve the ability to maintain it. And eventually, this will become automatic, with no effort at all. You see, the answer is not in outer effects - like body language, tone of voice and so on - it's about only a state that is already inside you and your job is to let it shine out. And you can't force it, you can't let that part out when you aren't in the vortex. Almost certainly, any other method would fail. You are wanting to feel effortlessness with other people - and effortlessness is only in the vortex. Self love is only there. Enthusiasm, excitement, passion and joy are in there. All methods we discuss have the purpose of bringing you there.

Just decide that NOTHING, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, is more important than you feel good. Decide to always go for a thought that feels better, even if it's only slightly better. Start a book of positive aspects. Meditate for 15 minutes every day. Let yourself enjoy the beauty of your imagination, and allow yourself to feel how your dreams feel (which are waiting in the vortex for you). Whenever you catch yourself slipping back into negativity (meditation will make you sensitive to that), choose a general thought and reach for the feeling of hope. Just dedicate yourself and be determined to change your point of attraction. Do this, and it will happen quickly.

how to deal with those
who supposedly know you better
than yourself

accept the fact that you are
here to learn, develop, unfold
that you live with yourself
and know the knower more fully

look for the reasons why
life has more important issues
than a personality contest
and to believe in yourself

Cass, I could have written what you wrote...word for word. I annihilate myself when I screw up, make a flub, say the wrong thing...I lay on my pillow at night and play the scene over and over, wondering how to take it all back...how to change it, how to fix myself...At least, I used to...

I am starting to understand that being human means not being perfect! It is hard, hard work, trying to be perfect all the time. I am shy! That is my problem. When I identified this essential part of my personality, it allowed me to become aware that when I get into social situations, I am going to sweat; I am going to be afraid.

So I try to rehearse what I am going to do...in my head. I try to imagine myself with people, and exchanging small talk. Church has helped a lot, because it is a small church, and the people are very understanding and forgiving. Slowly, each week, I have tried to reach out a bit more and then a bit more than the week before. Guess what??? It is working! I am getting practice at making small talk, at forgiving myself when I goof up, and when I say something stupid, I say, "Boy, that was a stupid thing to say!" and I laugh and the other person usually laughs, too!

Shyness is inherited. But it can be overcome with patience and practice. Perfectionism is another ugly trait I have. I love being perfect, and doing everything perfectly. But I have learned that I will NEVER be perfect, no matter what. I am human; I make mistakes. In my childhood, I was not allowed to make mistakes. That programming is now being undone in me. I see where I am being too hard on myself, and I just try to let things go and flow.

I hope this helps. Where you are is a very tough place! I know- I have been and am there with you! I hope and pray you learn how to go soft on yourself, and love yourself more.

My Blessings,

Jai

Cassiopeia after having read Spiritual Marketing again, as I have many times I have to ask you, What are you expecting? Think on your fear when you go into a situation, if you are feeling a fear you are expecting something. What are you expecting?

There are many techniques for manifesting using the Law of Attraction or/and Prayer but it comes down to, What are you expecting?

What we are expecting is exactly what we are inviting. If I say a prayer then worry about it, what I am expecting is different from what I am wanting. Wanting something and expecting it are two entirely different things. We get what we expect not what we want.

Now if I say a prayer and feel God says, "Relax, don't worry about it. I got this." I don't need to worry about it, it is being handled for me. So my expectation is on this is being taken care of and it gets taken care of.

The same way for all of life experience, What are you expecting? When I ask myself what am I expecting, I need to know that the choice is mine, not the world's choice but my own choice of what I expect. The choice is not circumstance choice, not my past experience choice but my choice right now! So then the question is what am I choosing to expect right now? Is it positive or negative? The choice is all mine as it will set the stage for the experience I am about to experience.

We can reprogram our brains with Psych-K®, I was looking this up on the net it is a very easy way to cross the brain to use both sides to reprogram our brains.

@Casseopia, are you still here? I, too could have written most of this post myself, you have spoken directly to so much of what I feel.

My personal revelations recently have unearthed my own hidden shame - I know exactly what you meant except the end where you figured it out. :s I have felt huge relief uncovering that shame, but I have yet to understand what you do about it. I found your post by searching on the subject of shame because I feel suddenly rejected and judged and ashamed, due to something most other people would barely notice, and so was looking for help. I know I should not feel this way but that is not doing me any good.

If you are here, I would love to hear more from you. Thank you.

Hey Cassiopeia.

I enjoyed reading your question. Especially your revelations. It's so great to hear when that light bulb goes on. I could totally relate to a lot of what you said. It seems to me like I'm forever peeling off the layers like working on my negative thoughts then discovering fear of failures...worked on that....discovered 'oh I have a fear of success' ...then recently discovered 'oh need to work on why I have to be perfect'. I got a revelation too that made me smile and go wow. I had been meditating on being happy with self and not being perfect. So I kept having this image of light beings forming a circle around me. Anyway, I would notice that some of these beautiful light beings had flaws like buck teeth, or scabs on their hands. So what I kept doing was, shaking my head and controlling this because, it had to be my own negative thoughts. I kept stopping the meditation because it wasn't working. Then it dawned on me...i'm meditating about not being perfect. So when I meditated again, I didn't try to control it, the light being with scaby hand wanted to hold my hand, the one with buck teeth came and sat beside me and lent on me. After a while their flaws disappeared. It's hard to explain but this meditation experience had a huge impact. I guess it's the 'realization' of something that had been trying to get through to me.

At the same time I don't quite get it...that simple and has it worked?...time will tell.

Start by stop recognizing your strengths as a weakness. Fear is a self defense mechanism that protects us from danger. If it were not for your fear, you would be on self reflection forums expressing how clumsy you were for not perceiving your calamity before it arouse. Next step is to control your fear. We seek to control all of our emotions, as would a "Young jedi night" seek mastery. To achieve this is easier said then done. You must do what you fear. By doing what you fear causes the level of fear to diminish. Good luck young jedi and may the force be with you!