The answer, in a nutshell, is,"Yes!". That "uneasy feeling" was telling you something. I can understand you ignoring it- wakes and funerals make us all uneasy- but your gut told you more. Always follow your gut, and make no excuses for doing so! If someone questions you, all you have to say is this "I just could not go." No explanations are necessary. Sometimes, we act as if Emily Post is God. Says who? We can pay tribute to others in our own way, at our own time.

{{{{{{Big hugs from me to you. I am sorry you went through this.}}}}}}

Love,

Jai

All feelings of anger, imbalance, worry , and sadness, come from fear. There are only two emotions, Love, and fear. All other emotions are direct, or indirect results of these two. Now seeing this you must also understand that when we feel love, it is because we are directly connected to the true us. Our soul is made from love and therefore our natural state. Fear is an emotions caused from separation form our souls energy. The only way we can feel this is when we choose to go against what our soul knows. That's all these negative emotions are. They are warning systems to show us that we are thinking, somthing that we are doing, or somthing within our beliefs are not aligned with who and what our souls truly are. You must know this to understand what is going to be said now.

The reason you had a bad feeling is because of your fear of loss. This fear of loss, is somthing the soul knows not to be true, this is why when people die, we become sad, fearful, angry, and all other negative emotions. Our soul knows that there is no loss. Death is a part of the natural experience and no loss is had. you haven't lost anything, except your comfort level with how you experience that person. This is the direct issue in your situation, nothing more nothing less. What I am saying is this, you shouldn't have dismissed your uneasy feeling, and the outcome was only the way it was, because all parities evolved where in a fearful state. They where upset about death, and this alone is what caused the uneasy feeling. As you believed that something would go wrong, and you went into the situation with imbalance of the soul, then you manifested the exact situation you believed would happen. Now, i am not trying to be insensitive, or rude, i am only trying to explain. Believe me, when i loose someone, well not loses, but when someone passes, believe me, I am in same state. Most do, I am only trying to show you why you felt this feeling, and why it manifested into such a bad experience.

The next time you get this uneasy feeling, remember, do not suppress it, do not ignore it, only understand it is there for a reason. It is there because whatever you are doing, thinking, or a belief you have about somthing, does not match with the soul knows to be true, and therefore not aligned with who and what you truly are. I hope that this helped.

love and light

rob

for vid about dealing with loved ones passing. look Here

This is like the disappearing wall. Imagine a wall that is moving in towards you. You brace yourself and apply all your strength to hold this wall back! You lean into this and use everything that you have to keep this wall from crushing you!

As you are really pushing and leaning into the wall the wall vanishes! You fall hard to the ground because of all the effort you put into stopping it from moving.

Now you are not hurt from the wall crushing you, you are hurt from your fall to the ground!

We do this mentally, we prepare for the worst. We may put up a big shield, and say "I'm not going to let this bother me no matter what!" We mentally brace ourselves, we take a stance and push hard! We may even get angry preparing ourselves. We might practice, if he says this, I'll tell him off! Just wait for him to start, man I'll let him have it good! Go ahead and push me I'm ready for you!

But we find nothing happens! He doesn't confront us, we have our guns loaded and pointed with no excuse to shoot our mouths off. Where is the resistance, where is my target? I'm ready for this, where is it?

So we go though the situation on high alert, waiting for that moment when we can fight back! But it never comes, our nerves are on high alert, it could be any moment now! But still nothing.

We go home now able to release and relax, but we can't calm down. Where was the big fight we were preparing for? What happened? We try to relax saying, "It is all over now, but what is over nothing happened!" Our nerves are still on survival mode, finely everything releases at once. All these emotions pour through us, from, "What happened, I was ready!" to "It's over now." These conflicting emotions overwhelming the senses cause a breakdown of loss of control. It is like our guns are now firing releasing all of this on no one. But we feel like we can't control it, it is out of control.

When the resistance disappears we fall as hard as we were ready to resist ourselves.

When I have these "doubts/resistance" about a situation ... a "I don't want to"
There is something that rob/treb brought to my awareness
Love and Light
We are Love and Light. and that is unlimited! It is when we choose to be limited we become that. I know when I am in situations that can be stressful or have apprehensive feeling about. I just remember that I am Love and Light. In those situations when it gets complicated (SHTF), just a pause to remember Love and Light. You have an abundance of Love and Light. An unlimited abundance.
The same works also for me when having to deal one on one with people that some would call Energy Vampires. When you realize that you are unlimited. Even the hungriest vampire has a point where they're full. An other tip that I picked up from The Traveler in a comment he talked about focusing on the persons third eye. I use this too. It looks like you are looking at them in the eyes but when you focus your intentions on the persons third eye the energy crosses over... try it sometime!
peace