I really feel where you are coming from but you know you have to find something to take your attention away from what isn't manifesting. You can't ruminate on it and continue to notice the lack or scarcity without inviting more of that same lack or scarcity into your experience.

All I can suggest is to try to find some little thing,anything at all that helps you feel a little better. I know I'm only repeating what you've already heard before and what you already know yourself but quite often repetition can be the key.

From reading some of your recent posts I know you think your world is about to fall apart and I know this may not sound like any kind of consolation, but most people who have made a major breakthrough in their life experience have done so because of their world falling apart, so maybe you are on the precipice of something similar. Probably, not quite what you want to hear but there may be light at the end of the tunnel.

The only other thing I can suggest is going within and and asking the Divine,Source or God for help with this - ironically enough even on a spiritual journey we tend to take our questions everywhere else before we take them to the place where the solution will always be offered if we can just get still enough to hear it.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and I know a solution will present itself.

Where there is a problem there is a solution.

There is enough in this Universe for all of us.

How great is your urgent need?

Then take the appropriate action, and do the leg work to manifest your desire.

The Ball is in your court now, you must run with it, and you do not stop until you get to your destination. The faster you run the quicker you will get to your destination, and the LOA will deliver to you based upon your effort of urgency to meet your goal!

The answer is you want it now, then you must manifest it now! Good Luck!