Hi rûla throughout your question you mention the wall a lot "I was like dealing with a pieced wall everytime I filled single gap, another gap created", " I accept the existence of my wall but I want to move it" ... so what is this wall you speak of so often that seems to be causing all the trouble?

You are always motivated by what you perceive as being pleasurable and away from what you perceive as painful, the key to all this is what you believe ,what you perceive as pleasure or pain.

Deep inside you're pure positive energy the vibes are high and the feeling is good, this is your fundamental natural state, everything around you is also energy including thoughts. Beliefs whether they be positive or negative are formed in exactly the same way, positive and negative beliefs are thoughts that you have activated, that you have given a lot of attention and focus to and their vibes have become stronger and stronger over a period of time. Basically everything is neutral and equal, nothing has any value except the value that you give it, and value is colored by belief which acts as a filter, whether that belief be installed consciously by choice or more commonly unconsciously through the environment, culture, education ,,, etc.

Positive beliefs are based on centering your attention and focus on what you love, on your heart, thus activating them, they can be represented in graphic form by a simple, circular, expansive elastic structure.

Feeling positive is being in line with your true natural self, you are a complete and harmonious person. With a positive belief you always have freedom to choose and you can change that belief anytime and in any which way you wish.

Negative beliefs are based on centering your attention and focus on your fears and anxieties, on what you dislike, on what you don't want, thus activating them, They are thoughts which carry much lower vibes than your innermost happy self, this creates discord, and the feeling is uncomfortable. So when you have negative beliefs you are in discord and they cause discordant situations, you act in ways that disserve, you react from a place of fear and anxiety. You feel generally uncomfortable and boxed in, you disable the possibility to be yourself, to be the lively and happy person you really are. Feeling anxious and argumentative are sure signs that you stuck in a negative pattern.

Negative beliefs separate and render inflexible, incapable of compromise and can be represented graphically by a crystallized non expanding structure that contains self-reinforcing mechanisms that describe the workings of the wall that you mention so often in your question

At their core negative based beliefs key into your survival instinct, the idea that if you don't follow this belief you will die and you're caught up in a vicious circle, a negative loop.

When in an enlightened positive state you can see all the possible choices even the negative ones because they're all equal choices, from the perspective of the higher mind the positive beliefs are always sending in information, always sending guidance to show you the way back to your natural self.

When you're in the light you understand that the doorway that leads to the dark is just a choice and it's offered to you as an equal choice, but when you're in the dark the doorway that leads to the light is hidden or disguised it will constantly switch back and forth in a variety of ways such as projection, rejection of ideas, paranoia so that you won't believe what people are saying to you when they are actually trying to help, you'll feel like you're being held in a state of constant imbalance, seeing things in a negative light keeping you off balance.

This is where knowledge is power comes into play, recognition of this structure can give you an edge on it.

You can use this graph by taking a specific negative idea for example "I am unloved" put it in the center and look at all the different ways the mechanisms reinforce the idea that you are unloved, to make it seem like it's justified, rationalized, rewarded ... in the final analysis when you find yourself saying to yourself " I am unloved" you'll recognize that it's just a belief like any other belief.

You can switch over to the positive reference that you have the freedom to choose, to follow your inspiration, events can be considered as positive instead of negative, you can expand instead of contract, you can start to see through the illusion and know that the negative belief is simply one of the many infinite choices you have and they are all equal.

You can say to yourself I prefer this instead of that.

Thanks Bashar

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p09yyPJAZbY

is the wall needed? if not needed just drop the wall. what is a gap if not a place to put a pieces of puzzle in perfect concordance and harmony with the other puzzle pieces. as for how can the environment effect filling our gaps who said that it was the environment job to fill it? you are filling the environment not the other way around. but if you think that it is the environment job to fill you then you are taking from it. if you are taking from it are you putting the same back in it? look at the planet with no human it would be full of tree, animal, fish etc.... they would be filling the environment. but now you are filling it also. do not do like the dwarf they dig to deep.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cp7no2B322E