what right is it that has me
believe how others react
to what is written or said,
my control is of myself

Hi there, Good question. Both answers (:as is the case with all answers:) are true but you will prefer some better than other. However, none of the answers are the Ultimate Truth. If you'd like to know more, let me know with a comment and if you're satisfied with one or the other answer presented above, or a blend of both or anything else for that matter then please proceed. Congruence with your chosen "answer" is very important.

========= MORE INFO ========= Hi there Inner Beauty, So here's the more detailed reply since you said you're interested in my perspective.

EVERYTHING IS WITHIN. Consciousness is the only reality and YOU are that consciousness. All the "others" are YOU and YOU are all the "others". It seems very hard to understand this since YOU take on the illusion of a seemingly limited perspective that you somewhat incorrectly (: and yet somewhat usefully :) consider to be "You". Since consciousness is the basis of all reality and you are that consciousness, anything in your experience (: including this question, the answers, all arguments, counter arguments, sensory so-called evidence etc. :) which is in your consciousness and therefore part of it must be a product of it. As far as YOU are concerned, nothing would exist save for your consciousness of it. You will always be conscious of (: in terms of experience :) what you are conscious of.

If people are responding this way then you are on some level creating it. It's very tricky for an outsider to point out specifics of this clearly without considerable interaction with you. As for your job search: no matter how many approaches you take only the ones you are in significant alignment with will work. You don't need many tries, but you do need that ONE ALIGNED MOMENT / OPTION. Tries don't find that moment or opportunity, only alignment does :) so being as happy or relaxed as you can will help you tremendously. However, I do understand that sometimes in certain situations you may feel terribly stressed if you don't make any attempts so you take some "shots" to make yourself feel better - that is fine if that's the only way to take some imagined (: and therefore real :) pressure off you. Still at some point, you'll have to focus on getting in the well-being zone to a significant degree.

In terms of dealing with the response / "lack" of it, here's how I'd do it:

a) Accept that I have caused this experience through my state of mind one way or the other even though it I can't pin down how I've done it. I'll leave that for later.

b) Realize there can be significant benefits in a "no response". Getting into something you're negatively aligned with can cause more regret in the longer run. So it could turn out to be something useful. One of my biggest breaks when I was looking for a job was after I decided "I'm stopping this search s--t." (: I was pretty annoyed with how it was turning out :) and decided to take ANY consequence that came. What happened was, someone who did not really know I was available heard from someone else who did know (: and I didn't orchestrate any of this nor was it directly linked to my job search activities :) and got in touch with and I went to on to take on something that really enjoyed for its time and that was very beneficial to me in many ways. I did not even push for it really, and any external asking I did came rather naturally to me. I'm not suggesting you quit the search, but if it's really putting you off then it might be worth considering (: delay until you feel a bit better :) because when you're getting p*ssed off with what's happening on the search in the current moment, that affects the next and so on. Sometimes when you turn your focus away (: even though that seems counter intuitive :), you release the block in your consciousness that allows the next good thing in.

c) Spend more time in meditation if you aren't already. Sometimes keeping the mind relatively quiet is better than a lot of positive emotion generating processes because sometimes quiet is what is required.

d) You can also gear a response using your imagination. Start imagining positive responses before you send the letters / mails out. Imagine people engaging in positive ways with you. Revise memories of unpleasant incidents using your imagination into what you'd like - do this only if you feel reasonably positive during the revision process or alter participants (: sometimes using some people triggers the negativity :) while keeping the general idea of the script the same. The idea is not change the past (: although you are subtly altering it in a certain way as crazy as it sounds :) or force someone to behave in a certain way, but to your Self geared in the right direction.

I hope this helps you. Get in touch if you need additional info.

hi inner beauty, i must edmit i have struggeled with this problem few month ago so...

"I guess I'm going out into the world with a vibe of 'people don't really care about me and only reply if it's something they want or is to their benefit'"

the short answer is to just let go. lets say that it is true.and let say they dont care about you and only care about their own benefits - well, SO WHAT? let them! try to SEPARATE your self from them and let them be who they want to be ,and ask what they want to ask from you, let them be "bad" if that what they choose to be, allwo them to be who they are and gain what they want from this life. try not to focus on what they want or be!! focus on what YOU want, focus on your benefins, on your gains form your doing. I know its hard to make this separetion at first when interacting with people , because it seems like we're being mean but we are actualy taking care of ourselves and being more focused. you are now angry just because they are reflecting you that you are a bit needy, like need their love (while you dont actually "need" it, you already have it) they are showing you what focus means , they are telling you in vibration "dont look at us, dont care about us now, dont be afraid of us cause we hate that and we can sence that, stop doing thing just to please us, what do you want? say NO to us once in awhile like we do to you, learn from us, it feels so good to say no!! "

look, i know abraham teaches how to say "yes" to everything, but in order to say yes we must learn to say "no" first, "we must first know what we dont want in order to know what we do want" (AH) so we have to identify what we dont like, and then separete it from us, but that means not only the thought, sometimes it means people and "good" behaviours that are not benefiting us.

another thing is the "waiting" -try this belive i used to say to myself :

im not a victim of any circumstance. i dont wait for any thing or anyone. i dont need to wait for aphone call or respond or a comment in order to act or to feel good. im a creator and i initiate things , im the one who run my life, i do what i want whenever i want. this life is mine. i call when i want to whom i want, and i answer the phone or comment only when i feel i good about it. i dont have to do anything. i plan and do many great things in my wonderful life and wait for no one, waiting for then is keeping me stagnant. they are defenatly not my match and im letting them go right now. my intention is to stop fighting with them (in my head)cause this fight will never stop, and cause i know who im and this knowing is enough for me to do whatever i want to do. im not waiting anymore casus patience is for my yesterday me. patience is for my stressed about everything me, i remember when i thought patience meant somthing totaly different from now, when i thoght it meant being good and kind, and understanding, but it it was always acommpanied with other feelings of sadness, nervesness, looser, anger....so i dont want to be patience anymoe. now i know that patience has got nothing to do with those bad feeling, when im patience i feel relaxed and i dont care about anyone, i dont care about them cause i trust their inner being. so i m in silense. also i know i have my own inner being so i know that im onlways in the right direction no matter what. i know that this world is filled with unlimited oportuuities so if one person dont respond i never wait, maybe ill try again but never wait caus i run my life, i trust that its for a reson, and for a good one and just mmove on.

ho, and last thing - allow your self to be sad and angry.really BE in those feelings and dont gudge your self. this will push you faster to a high vibe and good answers.

Radically edited- My original answer was terrible... My apologies to @Inner Beauty, and to my friends here. Inner Beauty, I can only imagine how badly you felt after reading my response, which did not apply to your answer at all. Doubly terrible, because you really needed to be heard! I hope this new answer will help you a little. ♥

I suppose that when you are not hearing back from people, perhaps you are assuming things about what they might be thinking... both about you and about what they think of whatever you wrote.

When I write anything that is public, and nobody responds to it, it leaves me feeling a little bereft. I wonder if I did not "hit" people the right way. I wonder if they got nothing out of what I wrote. I might even start feeling sorry for myself! But usually, I am assuming a bunch of ideas which usually are completely off base! Remember? Assume = "a** [out of] u + me" ??? I always have to be careful when I assume anything. People do not have crystal skulls, so I cannot read their thoughts! When I write privately to others, and they do not respond, it irks me even more. I gather this is not an isolated problem; Dear Abby is inundated with letters about people who are not responding to RSVPs- even wedding invitations are not being responded to, which is really terrible. Invitations with RSVPs should always be answered. I guess that people are getting pretty used to being able to message each other; even emails get ignored because messaging is so much easier. So if this is the case, you do have the right to be upset when you do not hear from people... But, still, I would refrain from going as far as assuming that you are being rejected, which is at the core of the problem.

It hurts to be rejected by others. It really does. Inclusion feels good. I have a big problem with rejection. I sometimes get myself really tangled up when I perceive that I am being rejected. I think some of this stems from my childhood, when I truly was rejected by my mother. I also was bullied in High School, and I thought that this bullying was my fault, and also I thought that it just confirmed that my mother was right to reject me. When people do not respond to me, one way or the other, my mind always leaps right to the conclusion that I am being rejected. I have to say, though, that Wade has helped me a lot with this. A lot. :) Wade is very quick to point out when I am being illogical, and when I assuming things and jumping to conclusions that may not be true. I have had a short temper lately [because of pain... my back is very bad]. It really helps that he withstands my outbursts and does not change what he thinks about a situation, just because I am upset. Thanks, Wade. [He deserves to have a few flowers pinned on him. Really. I have been totally nuts with pain, and he has been angelic. Forgive me for my digression here. Blame it on the pain meds. I have to take them to help.]

When John (my ex-husband) asked me for a divorce, of course, this played into my bad feelings about myself. Once again, I was being rejected. I was a failure. I get this black, dark sensation in the pit of my stomach just thinking about it. And then came huge gaps of what you call, "silence". I could no longer count on John, or any of my family for that matter, to respond to me when I needed them. I think that when you mentioned this lack of response, it must have triggered something big in me. I think my terrible answer came from my resonation with you. I guess I did not want to look at those bad feelings. Isn't it funny how my mind thinks it is protecting me? Actually, it failed me.

Rejection is hard to deal with, but not impossible. I have to catch the feeling very quickly. I then have to stop it- stop feeling it, that is- and examine where my thinking has gone. I find I am always assuming a great deal of nonsense which usually is not true. I then have to substitute some rational thoughts into my mind. I have to say positive facts about myself:

I am not a bad person. I do have value. I have done some good things with my life. Not everyone hates me. I am loved. God loves me. I have worth.

And so on.

It takes practice, but this works for me. I hope it helps you. I also hope that you will take a look a what you are assuming when you feel that "silence". Where did that feeling originate? How were you hurt initially? What can you do to fill up the hole this made in you? How can you take apart your thinking so the "silence" will not hurt you anymore?

I hope this is a better answer!

Blessings,

Jaianniah

To answer your question ask your self those 3 question.

1:Well what does it tell you when someone does not answer back?

2: What does it tell you about them ?

3: What does it tell you about your self?

if you asked your self those 3 question you should arrive to similar answer.

answer

1:If the person does not answer back it could be that they view what you said as information and they have nothing to add. or they might not be able to answer you if you asked a question.

2 What does it tell you about them either they know what you told them or they did not know. and if it was a question and they are not able to answer it might be that they do not have enough knowledge at the moment to answer you back so they need to learn more about what ever the subject was.

3 What does it tell you about your self. that you exchange info and the person as nothing to add means that you might have all the info about the subject or you have more then the person you are talking with. in the case of a question they do not see them self fit to answer your question so they are in the dark on this. on less they see you not worth to answer to in this case it is their problem and unless they have a really good reason to not answer example they know that if they answer you, you will not be happy of what they say or you will keep on going for ever on this subject and they do not want to go that way, then it is their choice and they have free will and are responsible of their choice same as you. Why then do you have that darkness in your cup? and why do you see other as the problem and your self as the problem? also if you have problem with silence you should go to a silent place and meditate. you see often people wash only the outside of the cup they see other and the world around them as the problem. yet if they go meditate for real they find out that the problem is not out side it is not other it is not the world. the problem is to clean the inside of the cup. what most often people do not do and from the over flow of the heart they drop their unclean and poisonous dark water in other people cup saying it is your fault I don't like you, you are ugly you are stupid. etc.

There are many standing at the door, but it is the solitary who will enter the bridal chamber.

Rather then finding problem on the outside one should go in the desert and solve is own duality clean the inside of the cup and make is heart pure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6eTbhHE0jM

there is light in a person of light and it shines on the whole world, if not it is dark.

you are not in darkness any more.

Let there be light, be the light that you can be, experience and enjoy.