Hello!

Well from the way I see it I am assuming you have contributed alot to society by helping other people. In this life you have been selfless, compassionate,and giving. This is actually a greater accomplishment than having money itself, being able to give of knowledge and understanding to others. I am assuming you have learned alot and from the way I see it, learning never ends as long as you are breathing their is always more room for growth. I think you need to first write down each and everything you are greatful for any and every small thing as simple as being able to put gas in your car when it needs it. as simple as having a meal to eat each and everyday. Then I suggest you write down everything you love, such I love a certain type of music, a certain type of country, a certain type of food, a certain type of way of thinking it should not be limited. Then you should write down all the things you would love to know more about a certain language, a certain esoteric idea, a certain civilization and once you do that commit to begin to research those things. Let life guide you. Hope this helps some. Its just somewhere to start for now. Good luck.

Often times we have a fire within us and yet we have to contain that fire in order to take care of our responsibility (for example, wife, child, bills etc...) but their comes a time when you have to also put yourself first. I think the beginning start of that is when you begin to ask that question as you did. This is the time to get to know yourself apart from being a father and husband. It doesn't mean you should start neglecting your responsibilities it just means their is more out here for you to know and find out. It does not really happen over night the first step is just to start somewhere. Also I think you need to begin to recognize the greatness of who you are.

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

Alfred D'Souza