i axplored recently the topic of co-creation with other people. the more i explore the more bad dreams came (and i always had good dreams or not at all) but thats not my question.

i understand that everything i think or experience is only through my perspective. and that if someone behave in a certain way then this "way" percive only by me. i understand that i know nothing about other people vibration, but mine. and i also understand that i created every person in my life in the way he act/ treats me. and have the power to change these behaviores.

so im a very happy human being (even by myself), alway have been, i love to travel and be in nature, but i've noticed that in the past years i got rejected by my best friends and family when it comes to have fun , fly to anothe country/city, etc. im gonna share a little..its not that they dont love to do that kind of stuff, just not with me!! so i accepted it once, twice... but it became weird, humiliating and angers when my mom didnt want to go to a trip with me (and i asked not just once) she said she will never go with me and prefer to go with MY SISTER!!! another example is one of my best friend (so i thought) who asked me to not order a fly ticets a week before our flight because "she is afraid we'd fight" . so i was expecting somthing completely different, and felt really good, but the result was terrible in all aspect (accept their enjoiment of course).

so i tryed to work the bugs on my self .. but it didnt work - my true feeings is that i dont want these people in my life. well...they didnt want me to (through my perspective of course).

so my question is - i have a huge desire to travel and have fun, but im not in the place of suggesting anyone anymore after so many refusals. there arent confidents issues here. im just tired of it. i want someone to come and ask me for a trip. yeh, why not?

further to the issue of co- creating , how do i change my vibration or - what is the vibration of someone that dose not experiense what i do ? i want to be a match to that.

also, im not in an angry state usualy/now, but can defently observe my situation. so any affirmation or SPESIFIC method would help becouse the general dosent really anymore. thanks.

edit:
i opened a video on youtube and just got my answer. thanks everyone. but if you have somthing to add id love that too.