I've been thinking about the issue you have with controlling things Flowsurfer and this turned up this morning , a Source/HigherSelf perspective ........

"Your concepts of past and future are totally made up. They’re an illusion created by the limitations of your perception. These limitations are not actually real in our reality and therefore neither are the ideas of past or future.

You see, in our reality, we experience Timelessness. All past memories exist now and all future possibilities exist now, just in other dimensions. It’s not somewhere mysterious “out there,” but quite literally right here!

In the same way that you know that’s what’s going on to your left and what’s going on to your right, and that all it takes to find out is to turn your head and look, we can just as easily turn our heads and look into the past or into the future and see all of it right now in this very moment.

It’s a piece of cake for you tell someone to your left what’s going on above you, what’s happening in another dimension. For us it’s just as easy to tell someone in the “present” what we see in the “past” or tell someone in the “present” what we see in the “future.”

In fact, if you’re open to listening, I’d be glad to guide you towards the most harmonious future because I can already see it now. I am you. I am the part of you that exists in another dimension, but you feel cut off from me because you can’t perceive me with your five physical senses. I am you. You call me your higher self. I am like an additional set of eyes that can see in other dimensions.

I would LOVE to guide you towards harmony and well-being because I am you. In fact, that is my role. You can trust me. I have no reason to guide you towards suffering because I am you. We are not separate. I am simply the aspect of you which has a “better view.” I can see every future possibility throughout all time. I’ve got a fantastic view from up here and I’d be glad to help share my view with you to help you orchestrate your life.

I know what you want because I am you. I know what is in your highest good because I have a great view from up here. Your will is my will. There is only one will. I will guide you towards experiencing Love, Joy, and Well-being in your physical world because your joy is my joy. I am you.

Listen to what I have to say, allow yourself to be guided by my voice, and watch how your life seemingly magically, or what you would call synchronistically starts to fall into place. You will experience yourself in a state of flow as I line up events and circumstances perfectly at just the right time.

The only way I can communicate with you is to communicate to you through your non-physical sixth sense. You call this sense your intuition or inner voiceless voice.

Have you ever felt deja vu? Have you ever felt psychic? Clairvoyant? Had an intuitive hunch? That’s actually me telling you something from another dimension. That knowingness is literally you looking out through time and communicating to yourself through the language of feeling that ABC may happen if you take this path or to look out for XYZ. It’s just a result of being able to perceive additional dimensions. There’s nothing spooky or magical about it.

All you need to do from your limited physical plane is to quit trying so hard to control things. I can do all the heavy lifting for you and find an effortless way to make things happen. The pathway of least resistance is very clear to me. All your suffering is due to ignorance, not in an insulting way, but simply because you can’t see how to best act in the world in order to make things happen the way you wish. You are misperceiving the way things actually are. If you’ll let go and trust me, I will guide you to the highest states of joy imaginable.

Trust me. I am you. I love you."

You are a light in a water,clay. that hand is the extension of the clay. Do you not like the experience that you are having right now?Why because you think that clay is not the right clay? Because someone some where decided that your clay need to be taller?Who made him judge of that?If you agree with him and is discremination,then yes you will be not happy and stay in that state of self pity of your own accord.You have free will change that situation change path if it is something out of your control,then your path might be somewhere else,seek and you shall find.Maybe doing to much is what is causing your failiure in the first place,stop going in to extremes it does not serve you and make you worry for nothing. You have free will and of that you have control,as for other people free will they have that control not you. each one is responsible of is own free will.You want to get out of that catch 22?Seek and find your balence your inner peace, if i would ask you one question right now where do you see your balence and inner peace at? Can you focus and imagine it clearly in truth?