It's probably just an old programme / belief in your vibration that's been activated again from your "past". And from your higher vibration it probably feels much worse than it used to. Situations like these are always an opportunity to integrate the experience.

My advice would be not to worry or fight it. Don't worry about not feeling good either as that can just add to the resistance. In my experience its pretty fruitless trying to work things out from an out of the Vortex state.

Just find a simple way to feel better like meditation for example. From a better feeling place all those things you thought you had forgotten will start to float back into your awareness. You see you don't need to "hold" onto to anything.

Let go of what you think you need to know for you will know it when you need to know it.

Bashar

Not sure if I have said anything you haven't heard before but I hope it helps Grace:)

Meditation with intention to connect to Divine everyday for little time is most important than anything else. This is the Source connection. When you place your highest focus on Divine for at least small amount of time your life experience will change. then all things can be brought onto you. you will become non-attached and nonjudgmental, more grateful, more loving, experience more passion and joy in life etc..

So the answer Everyday practice - so it will not let you slide in to out of alignment. Even if you its ok, you realize it and you come back into it. be easy on yourself.

You should also have few phrases of affirmation right before meditation that you said you want to remember who you are. And when you do this everyday like this it will give you the strength mentally and anchor you to what and how you want to be.

I did slack off on my vibrational work (on and off)

My experience is that when I skip a few days, sometimes I can experience some "all hell breaks loose" scenarios. (See conversation between Stingray and me in the comments section to this answer).

Here is a theory about your experience.

When you live 75% of the time in the vortex, your vibrational frequency gets higher and higher every day. You feel better and better. But...your capability to take punches from old limiting beliefs easily gets lower and lower. No longer you can tolerate those limiting beliefs. They can no longer be part of your new vibrational reality.

But I think this new sensitivity is a good thing. And IMO this is also the answer to this question:

How can I keep my lessons close to my heart?

Your lessons are so close to your heart that it hurts immensely when you unconciously depart yourself from your lessons. Your emotional guidance system is so sensitive to old limiting beliefs now that it no longer can tolerate them like it did in the past. Because it knows that you have the ability to focus and change every belief with your tools.

It knows that you don't need to tolerate them anymore. Because you are now a different, more powerful and skilled person. And I'm sure you know how powerful you are with Focus Blocks, Meditation and Rampages now in comparison to "Grace Version 1.0" who lived without all of that :).

Yes, I know it hurts immensely when all hell seems to break loose again. But remember, you now have the ability to focus and neutralize negative beliefs.

Another good thing is that this drama is a Step 1 moment. You put more good stuff into your Vortex and it feels even better to be aligned afterwards. And I must admit that I really enjoy it when I experience contrast.

Then I can use my tools and align myself again. And it feels way better than it did before. I feel like a new man. This feeling of going from hell to heaven in 20-40 minutes is irreplaceable for me.

But what to do if I don't want to experience so much drama again? What if I don't want my emotional guidance system to keep my lessons close to my heart? What if I want to do it myself?

For me the answer is simple now.

1. Don't skip days of vortex alignment anymore. My new motto is: "Vortex alignment is not an option. It's a necessity." Nothing and nobody is more important than vortex alignment in my life.
2. Have a morning and evening ritual. Move yourself at least once to the vicinity of the vortex every day.

When all hell still breaks loose sometimes and you are too confused to make your tools work, I would recommend just lying in bed and doing inner body meditation. It works wonders. The Mc²Method is my emergency tool. It works each time. Here is the Audio Program (www.mc2method.com, free access code: MC2FREE).

Grace, I think it is normal to cycle in and out of a state of high peace and being vibrationally top-notch. I have done so my whole time since I sought wellness. Sometimes, I do great, and at other times, for apparently no reason, I slide out of it and get frustrated with myself and with life. What happens then is I seem to try so hard to get back that feeling that I try too hard and push. Not good- pushing it seems to only push it away faster.

Try meditation and prayer. Deliberately concentrate on nothing while meditating; just seek a place of quietude in your body and mind. I had to do this myself last Monday because I was so out of whack. I found out that I needed to make some changes in my routine- new changes I had not previously needed. I also found that I was holding a lot of anger in my body. It seems that I store my emotions more in my body than in my mind these days.

Wellness is a series of spirals- you really do not go down, down, down, but up, up, up and around circling back to a new high. I think this is a normal part of being human, and vigilance when we "lose it" is required to start spiraling up again.

Try it and see. i think that this will help. Don't freak out...you are just being human!

Love,

Jai

Grace have you ever heard of Bio-rhythms? I don't put much faith in plotting the future but it can help in diagnosing how you are feeling. You look at it and see why you are having an odd week. "Oh it says my spiritual frequency is low this month! That's the problem! Everything will be all right.