I have been where you are, and I understand just how awful it feels. I have changed my thinking so completely that when the tipping point came, and my new habit of thought was steeped in love and acceptance of myself, I really was a little fuzzy on the details of the way my mind had been working just a few days before. I hope that makes sense, it's hard to explain. Suffice to say, it's a radical change. The great news is that it has stuck with me. Whatever else I may still be working on, that part of my journey is done. I love me now. ;)

If there was one tool that worked more than any other for me, it was the repeated listening to positive messages from Abraham. I would play the meditations cd from beginning to end whenever I could, and every night as I went to sleep. I would find workshop videos on YouTube and just keep them running whenever possible, and most especially when I felt hopeless about ever being able to change the way I talked to myself, and the painful life experience that stemmed from it.

It didn't really matter if I paid close attention or not. I did pay attention to my breath and a 15 minute meditation once a day, but the rest of the time I just let the words and loving messages float around me and find their own way in. I let it all love on me like a lullaby, like being lovingly cuddled to sleep. In fact, I still do that, especially when I feel a little fragile. :)

The phrases and ideas, the truths and the love eventually sank into my mind. Then, if I told myself I was a worthless piece of junk, etc., the contridicting truth would just crop right up automatically in my mind. I would hang onto to it, recognizing it as truth and revelling in it as long as I could, enjoying the sensation of alignment.

It's all about mental habit for me. The vicious words I habitually used on myself were always close at hand through years of constant repetition. Anything positive regarding myself sounded forced and false to me. If you've been talking to yourself as cruelly as I used to for so many years, it's probably all you know. Your vocabulary just isn't equipped for self respect and love. Add Abraham's powerful, simple words, phrases, and loving messages to your lexicon, and you rise above the nonsense of self-loathing. And believe me, I am a self-trained expert on self-loathing! If I can change, honestly, anyone can. :)

Remember, what you listen to matters. Whatever you focus on grows. Grow truth about your wonderful, powerful, light-filled, blindingly beautiful self, and enjoy the good feelings that come with this alignment with who you really are.

Love, Grace

:)

Personally, I find that when you feel so much negative momentum, it can be very difficult to do any kind of vibrational work that has to do with thinking (especially if you are not very skilled with those kind of tools yet).

So my emergency methods for those times were the ones that don't require much skills and thinking. Here are my favorite methods for "hard times" and extremely chaotic subjects.

• The Core Technique in the book "Pure Awareness" by Tom Stone
• The most effective meditation technique ever

All you need to do is to follow your bad feeling energies within your body (which comes easier than thinking good feeling thoughts in those times) until you feel huge relief. You really feel like a huge burden has lifted off after each session.

It can be quite counter-intuitive to do these methods first though. Because we usually don't follow the path of extremely bad feeling energies in our bodies. We rather tend to avoid them and put a happy sticker on them until they get bigger and bigger.

But if you are willing to try it, you will see for yourself that it can be a powerful method. Just lie in bed and do that for 1-2 hours every day. You don't have to think, just follow the simple instructions of those methods.

And once you feel much better after a few days, you can then do the methods that require thinking. They'll make much more sense then.

Do not work at this! Gently acknowledge you can not fight you thoughts with your brain. Gently Grab the steering wheel and guide to more positive thoughts. If you acomplished Any thing positive lately, remind yourself how wonderful you are

The only way to cope with where you are now is to realise that ultimately nothing matters - including what happens in your life, my life, or the lives of anyone else in this forum.

Nothing matters. Nothing is important.

Once you realise this, you will stop worrying about what thoughts you are thinking or what happens in your life, and instead just go wherever life is taking you. If you don't like where it's taking you - tough. You can try fighting it, but you will always lose. You can't win this fight. Your opponent is someone who cannot be defeated - not by you anyway (but you are welcome to try :-). The trick therefore is to surrender and ensure you no longer have an opponent. That's the only way you can win this game - by not having an opponent in the first place.

Forget about manifestation for the time being. Chasing manifestation without learning to surrender will keep you in the jail you are already in. Be an expert on surrender first.

And of course, none of this is important either.

The more you resist [fight] the negative internal dialogue the more momentum it gains, I've gone through this myself and this went on for quite some time. Suppressing it only allows it to come back again and again, and there's that momentum again, you must allow it to dissolve on it's own, and it can get very uncomfortable with the practice of allowing and letting go, but trying to put a stop to it will be futile to say the least and the worst time to use affirmations is when the negative internal dialogue is running rampant, they're just useless when you feel bad. The idea is to tip the scales and make a conscious decision to focus on the more positive aspects of your life [appreciation] and build the positive momentum from there ''allowing'' the internal dialogue to do as it will, the trick is to not buy into it's false negative dialogues by not being emotionally attached or affected by it's pull, easier said than done?, with practicing the art of letting go and allowing, the negative internal dialogue begins to lose it's hold on you while you focus more on the more positive aspects of your life, building up the positive momentum making THAT your dominant focus and vibration, thus allowing the negative momentum to weaken and run it's course. One more thing to consider that will help you, all this negative internal dialogue is not the REAL you, it's all lies and once you choose not to buy into it's false negative dialogue, it'll begin to lose it's grip and have no affect on you no matter how loud it screams at you, Godspeed!

from where does the dialogue
come, which of my seven rules,
open it to all before
accepting the pout

you cannot stop a though that is impossible. any one that have truly meditated can tell you this. you can slow your though and emotion down to observe it see why it is like it is understand it see if you made a mistake or some one else made a mistake and if so for what reason understand it make a better choice to not fall in that error again. once what bothers you is understand and solve it will settle down and go to its proper place.

though and emotion are some time also linked and do not agree on the same subject. you see the mind is logical and the heart deals with emotion. some time the mind is in error and sometime the heart is in error. it is the cause of many division and darkness in this world.

that you suppress it or ignore it only foul your self. to give you example: if you would see a person making a mistake lets say parking is car on a hill and not putting the parking brake on a standard car. later on the cop call him describing is car and asking him if it belong to him. of course he say: yes. then they tell him that it is going to cost him money because he forgot to put the arm brake. then he deny it saying: that he did not forget to put it and it must be a mechanical problem. the cop give him a chance and tell him to make sure that is arm brake is on it next time. the next time he does the same thing again and forget to put the arm brake on except this time the car his going down the hill toward him, and he is saying: that damn car must have a mechanical problem again. again not wanting to see that he forgot it again. the last time he told a lie and could not accept is error and decided to suppress it and ignore it. and now that car is running after him coming down that hill. he as just the time to get out of the way before the car crash in a pole on the side of the street. then he hurry to get in the car and to move away to make like this did not happen. according to you what will happen next time? will he forget to put is arm brake on? or will he make sure to have it on? do you think he understood is problem? or do you think that he does not want to see it and correct is error?

then we will say that he as two friend one is Leonard a very logical person and Brenda a very emotional person. both of them want to help him with is problem but they do not agree Leonard say: it as already happen twice that he forgot to put is arm brake it will happen again he always forget it and do not want to see is error. he should find away to solve this right now before it happens again. and if he is not able to solve is problem he should sell is car and take the cab.

Brenda say: yes it is terrible what as happen but he is a good person it is just a error it will not happen again and it would devastate him if you told him that he is a liar to himself and other and that he should solve is problem or should sell is car and take the cab. he only lie because it would hurt him and make him feel responsible.

according to you who are Leonard and Brenda? or what do they represent?

how can Leonard and Brenda perfectly agree together to help him?

you see Leonard is logical and Brenda is emotional. each of them seek to help and protect him.one on the matter of the mind and the other on the matter of the heart. will also say that if they lie to him they are not helping him at all.